During my time here at SparkPeople… I have given a lot of people advice. Most of that advice is stuff that other spark people were kind enough to tell me when I first started out here and I have passed it on to others.
I have told people not to get discouraged when the scale isn’t budging.
I have told people to eat more fruits and veggies.
I have told people to measure their food… ALL of it!
I have told people to track their food… every single bite!
I have told people to drink their water.
I have told people that if they fail they can start over tomorrow, today, RIGHT NOW!!
I have told people to exercise… even if it’s just 10 minutes!
I have told people to go to the gym… even if they don’t want to go... ESPECIALLY if they don’t want to go!
I have told people that it might not be easy but that it’s worth it.
I have told people that THEY are worth it!
Now, I need to remind myself that *I* am worth it!
My spark has been dimming since… well, since Christmas if I’m being totally honest.
It started with a few chocolate chip cookies on Christmas Eve.
No big deal, right?
Then there was cherry pie on Christmas Day.
Still not a big deal in the grand scheme of things, right?
I was off of work for most of the month of December… and I slacked off big time starting with Christmas Eve!
I stopped measuring ALL of my food.
I stopped tracking ALL of my food.
I stopped drinking my water.
I stopped planning my meals and cooking ahead.
I stopped going to the gym faithfully.
In January, I struggled to get myself back on track.
Truthfully, I probably had more days when I was off track (for at least one meal/snack a day), than on track.
At the end of January I passed out at the gym… and scared the spark out of myself (and my boyfriend).
It had been 7 years since I’d had a “pass out” episode and I had NEVER had one during exercise before… that was kind of scary.
I was told not to exercise for 2 weeks until I could have a bunch of tests done to make sure I was ok.
That translated into eat whatever the spark you want!
I mean if I can’t exercise what’s the point in eating healthy, right?
I SHOULD have kept eating healthy because that’s what I DESERVE… because that’s what my body NEEDS… but that’s not what I did.
I started eating out again… not fast food, but not HEALTHY food either.
I also found the bottom of a few pints of Ben and Jerry’s Half Baked… LOVE that stuff, but it’s not GOOD for me!
After all of the tests, I was basically given a clean bill of health… thank God! I was told to increase my sodium and fluid intakes and to make sure I get a good cool down following cardio… and that I shouldn’t pass out again as long as I follow that advice.
I have been working to up my sodium intake and my fluid intake, so at least that’s something that I’m doing right. I’ve managed to be over 2,000 mg of sodium almost every day for a couple of weeks now.
I ditched the “humid” gym because clearly that place isn’t worth the money I was paying for my membership if they can’t properly control the climate (which added to my “pass out” episode)… and I joined a sparking fantastic gym that CAN properly control the climate and that honestly has a lot more to help me reach my goals.
The problem though, is that I’m still scared that I will pass out again… and that is certainly not helping me get back on track.
I decided that I was going to suck it up though… and dive right back into working out and eating healthy… and then I woke up with a cough and chest congestion.
I’ve been told that if my symptoms are from the neck down, I shouldn’t exercise.
And that was all the excuse I needed to dive right back into old habits… Ben & Jerry really should be outlawed at least until I reach my goal weight!
I have been extremely fortunate that my weight has only fluctuated 2 pounds during the last several weeks of eating junk and getting very little exercise.
BUT… I really need to get control of this all or nothing attitude again!
Oh, I can’t work out… fine then I’ll just eat crap!
Talk about counterproductive!
I’m not really sure where the logic is in that. I should be eating BETTER since I know I can’t workout, not worse. Ugh! I’m so frustrated with myself right now!
So now that the chest cold appears to be getting better, it’s time for me to stop the excuses and just DO IT!
It’s time for me to start taking my own advice!
Eat healthy food.