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Losing My Way Each Evening

Sunday, March 04, 2012

I see a pattern starting here, and I don't like it. My roommate is on vacation, far far away for 10 days. I'm busy during the day at work, focused on my project which has a milestone deadline on Monday, and have plenty of after-work activities to keep me busy as well (Spanish lessons, Running Group, Speed Skating practices). I'm eating well, and lots, and have been really satisfied with my meals this week, after deciding to try a meatless diet for a month. I chopped up a bunch of veggies and made an Udon noodle stir-fry last night which I thought was fabulous and really filling. In spite of it, and my very positive feelings about it, I had a sweet craving after I was finished. I scoured the pantry, and found a bag of marshmallows. I allocated myself 4 marshmallows, and went to my computer to eat them while I caught up on emails for the day. I ate them and it wasn't long before I got up and went back for more. Repeat 10 times, until the entire bag of marshmallows was gone. I even told myself at one point "OK, this is the last one", and I was back 5 minutes later for more. I felt over-full, a bit nauseated, and was beating myself up by the time I disposed of the empty bag. Two days earlier, on grocery night, I bought a bag of chocolate covered almonds from the bulk section of the store, 270 grams worth, and they were gone before I went to bed that night.

So, I'm trying to figure out if it's emotional eating, since I'm mired in a lot of uncertainty right now; if I'm lonely without the one constant person in my life right now (since I'm already 3000km away from all my friends and family) and sugar is a misdirected response to that loneliness; or... something else.

I think I'll sleep on it, since fatigue could very well be a factor as well, and will try my best to have a better day tomorrow.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:

    I struggle with night-time eating too, and it's almost always emotional eating for me. I'm usually eating to avoid facing some truth or feeling some emotion or dealing with some difficult situation. Figuring out what's driving the behavior isn't always easy, but trying to "control" my behavior without also figuring what's going on doesn't work for me. "Clean eating" PLUS the emotional work does work for me - but I usually have to do some of the emotional work before I am willing to stick to clean eating long enough for the benefits to kick in!

One resource that has helped me a lot is Inside Out Weight Loss, a free podcast on iTunes. The host believes that every behavior has a "positive intent" - that when we are overeating, we are trying to give ourselves a gift (time to relax, comfort, security, whatever). Once I recognize the gift I'm trying to give myself I can find other ways to meet that need. That may not resonate with you, but it's helped me a lot.


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KANOE10 3/4/2012 9:30AM

    I also find that eating anything with sugar also makes me want more and more. Try to find other sweet non sugar things at night like bengal spice decaf chai tea..I drink lots of tea when I want something sweet..
I also believe in throwing out things to avoid temptations. have your marshmellows and put the rest in the disposal.

Hope today goes well for you.

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HISTORYRUNNER 3/4/2012 12:55AM

    My wife has the same issue and this is what she decided to do:"The only way not to have cravings for sweet things is to go low-carb, no grains at all in addition to no sugar and not a lot of tropical fruit. Since I've done this 2 weeks ago I can now eat one piece of chocolate occasionally and be satisfied. I still try not to keep a lot of sweet things in the house, but sometimes my family wants chocolate or candy so it's wonderful to feel in control of it. emoticon
Experiment a little to see what works for you.

Comment edited on: 3/4/2012 1:00:46 AM

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PIXIESTIX6669 3/4/2012 12:49AM

    I've found that giving up sugar for about 2 weeks gives you better control when you decide to have some (I gave it up totally since I was a sugar addict...but do allow myself organic chocolate (20 grams, almost every day)...Best to you on your journey...just keep going forward!

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 3/4/2012 12:42AM

    If you can, get rid of those tempting foods, and keep 'em out.

I sometimes have to purge the house to avoid eating stuff at night.

If you have to, throw away the marshmallows (or whatever) after you've gone back for seconds. That's when you know they are going to be a problem...

Hang in there.

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