Thursday, March 01, 2012
Why does it have to be SO drastic? The first 2 weeks of Feb. I finally got my act together and was running again and controlling my nutrition and I picked out a HM to run at the end of March, got rid of all of my size 12's and all of my clothes that looked and felt baggy on me. I was on fire and ready to see a weight I had never seen before.
Then the 3rd week of February came and I fizzled! 5 days of disgusting binging---- McDonalds!!!! YUCK! I despise McD's, but for some reason I felt the need to make myself physically sick from food. I could not quit eating! I had resolved that I wouldn't be ready for my Half marathon (I only missed ONE scheduled run!) , my clothes no longer felt comfortable, and I was starting to wear my sweats again....
JUST 5 days brought me to that state!
Well, thankfully last Saturday, I got everything under control, got my act together and rejoined the healthy lifestyle. So here I am.... just 6 days after my binge-fest, I am feeling on top of the world again. I have really tightened up my diet and am feeling SO satisfied! Not even tempted or thinking about food. I am planning a PR for my Half marathon, I I have been jumping out of bed at 0315-0330 ready to rock the gym and tone my arms and abs. I am craving the feeling of sore abs and sore arms from a killer workout. My clothes that felt way too tighton me last week are feeling very nice this week.
I have goals for March, April, and May, and all the way up through vacation. I am trying to stay on fire and not sink back into wanting to eat myself sick.
I wonder if it will be this way for the rest of my life???? Either eating healthy, working out, and feeling awesome? Or eating non stop and being a couch potato? I hope not.... I can't take it. I have to learn balance, but I am starting to think that just doesn't apply to my personality when it comes to living healthy.