Thursday, March 01, 2012
So Iíve been stressed. I was really anticipating a great 2012. I wasnít thrilled with how 2011 was going and I had a positive attitude going into the new year. I wanted new good things to happen. Riiiigght. That certainly hasnít happened. January and February have been very stressful for both me and my family. My apartment is trying to run me out, my nephew broke his leg and the hospital had social services running checks on them. I have two 93 year old grandmothers, one who has become very senile and lives alone and refuses help and the other getting sick. Things have just been crazy.
Iím fighting back now. I gained about 6 lbs from stress eating. I was still working out which helped keep it only a 6 pound gain, but I was feeling terrible and drained and run-down. Iím now house hunting. I no longer want to live with my home attached to anyone elses. This is a big step that Iím not really ready for, but at the same time I am. I know I could have been a home owner for years because Iím a very responsible person but I still feel like Iím 23 years old and not prepared to settle down. Iím not 23. Iím 31. I have a good job and a good head on my shoulders. I donít deserve to get phone calls that my apartment is being evacuated due to a boiler explosion or they are shutting off the water or there are pipes leaking, or anything else of that nature. I deserve to have my own problems to deal with.
I ended up finally getting the cold thatís been going around. It wiped me out. I had to call out sick which is something I never do and I stayed home and slept. This did happen to coincide with my P90X ďrestĒ week. The idea with P90X is muscle confusion. Work hard for 3 weeks then ďrestĒ for 1 week. And I put rest in quotes because itís still a tough week of workouts. I ended up only getting 3 of the rest workouts done and I really took the rest. I decided to kick it right back into full gear on the next week. Iím not back to feeling 100%. Still carrying around cold medicine in my bag but doing better. I am also doing the 10 day jump start diet that comes along with the Turbo Jam workout program. Itís really a lot of food. Itís high protein and low fat. Thatís a good deal. Itís the cooking and preparing food part that I hate, but I can do anything for 10 days. Today is day 5. Iíve been trying to stay away from the scale but I did hop on just to see what going on. I had lost all of my stress weight. Yay! Now I can work on losing more weight. That is a success. Itís clean food and healthy food and when tracked on my Spark tracker totally in range with all the things I need to keep an eye on. It might be slightly low in calories for what Iím burning on P90X but itís just for the 10 days. Might be why Iím getting hungry too but Iím only adding satisfying foods like fruits and veggies.
I know that I sound like a Beachbody advertisement. But I just love working out with DVDs. That started when I was too embarrassed to go to a gym. I know it sounds silly, but in my head, you donít find fat girls at the gym. Itís embarrassing to be the sweaty fat girl whoís killing herself while everyone else is doing so great. Bah. DVDs became the answer and I still love them now. Iíve been a Beachbody coach and now Iím going to stop that since itís just too much for me to handle right now. Iím dropping some of my commitments to help with the stress. I figured Iíd let you know that since it might sound like Iím trying to sell. Nope.
Hopefully things will stay on track. I think now I have the strength to move on. I am doing everything in my power to fix my situation, so I can only go that far. If I take care of myself, Iíll be even better.
And by the way, P90X is not my soulmate workout. I like it, but I donít look forward to it as much as I do some workouts. I really like Chalene Johnsonís way of teaching and I do prefer cardio so those workouts do best for me. I have also added to my collection with some Bob Harper programs (which are super tough) and some other programs from people who Iíve never heard of. Iím not specific to any particular brand or anything. I just like what works to keep me going. Any exercise is good that keeps you coming back!