Thursday, March 01, 2012
I treat myself like I don't deserve nice things until I'm thinner -- as if the weight is stopping me from doing them. The fact is that the only thing stopping me is myself. I've never had a sales clerk struggle to prevent me from buying ANYTHING; I've never had a dress that makes me look better and feel better fight me off.
I should be living each day to the fullest instead of waiting for this flood of happiness, opportunity and capability to wash over me when the weight is off. THE FACT IS, IT IS NOT GOING TO JUST HAPPEN -- I have to MAKE happiness happen just like I have to make the weight/baggage go away.
Whatever baggage I have now, I will have at goal weight if I don't deal with it and let it go. You can't expect happiness and love to enter your life JUST because of your weight or looks. I wasn't always happy when I was thin! And the fact that it won't happen plus the fact that you won't have food or weight to comfort/protect you will make living thin the hardest part of all.
SO: while you are losing weight , deal with the baggage. Stop waiting and start doing. Deal with the source of unhappiness NOW. Practice learning to deserve that happy life, those opportunities NOW. Practice becoming capable NOW. Practice ---BECOMING--- NOW.
Happiness isn't a number on the scale, it's living life and loving deeply. I do believe in rewarding yourself for hitting your goals. Just don't reward yourself with life and happiness. We should be striving for this EACH day and not waiting until goal weight.
Make good memories NOW.