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Thursday, March 01, 2012

First of all, I've been watching "Hoarders," and I've been scared to death. My dad was a hoarder, and I'm scared that the same tendency is lurking within me. Consequently, I've been going through old things, posting them on Freecycle, and getting rid of a whole lot of stuff.

One of the things I got rid of was a large assortment of postage stamp sheets, 76 of them to be exact. The face value of them was over $500 but because they're really not very old, a local stamp club president said I wouldn't get much for them. So, with the help of a friend, I put the sheets up on Ebay with a flat price of $200 for the lot.

Ebay auctions run for a week, and we could only post 12 of the 60 scans of the sheets. I figured I would let it run for the week and if they didn't sell, post them to Craigslist.

My friend texted me as I was driving home: The sheets sold in 4 minutes for the full $200. They go out today. Someone saw value in the items I was presenting.
I started a new job Monday, with an old boss, the one I used to have at the apartments. She left in October, and it was difficult without her. I did everything a manager did, without the acknowledgement (verbal or monetary) for it.

In this new job, I feel very gun-shy, and in talking with my boss this morning, I suddenly realized why: I feel just like I did years ago when I came out of an abusive relationship.

Now that I can see this, I can understand better the corresponding difficulty in maintaining my weight-loss/healthier eating difficulties, and can better evaluate what I need to do to re-build my self-confidence and self-worth. The last three days have been a start with learning to walk again.

I am going back to focusing on the minute-by-minute, day-at-a-time strategy I started with last June. I have to work on remembering how good it felt to walk every morning, and how good the quality of my sleep was. I have to remember what my goal is, and keep it in the forefront of my mind instead of letting it dangle around as I have been doing.

I have to remember that I am worth it.

**Thank you, HealthyAshley, for inspiring me with your blog about whole wheat graham crackers!
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    You are most definitely worth it! Whatever "it" is! *hugs*
    2211 days ago
    Loving yourself is one of the hardest journeys for many of us (myself!), but so much good stems from there. Start practicing looking in the mirror and loving what you see.

    Great revelation!
    2213 days ago
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