Thursday, March 01, 2012
First of all, I've been watching "Hoarders," and I've been scared to death. My dad was a hoarder, and I'm scared that the same tendency is lurking within me. Consequently, I've been going through old things, posting them on Freecycle, and getting rid of a whole lot of stuff.
One of the things I got rid of was a large assortment of postage stamp sheets, 76 of them to be exact. The face value of them was over $500 but because they're really not very old, a local stamp club president said I wouldn't get much for them. So, with the help of a friend, I put the sheets up on Ebay with a flat price of $200 for the lot.
Ebay auctions run for a week, and we could only post 12 of the 60 scans of the sheets. I figured I would let it run for the week and if they didn't sell, post them to Craigslist.
My friend texted me as I was driving home: The sheets sold in 4 minutes for the full $200. They go out today. Someone saw value in the items I was presenting.
I started a new job Monday, with an old boss, the one I used to have at the apartments. She left in October, and it was difficult without her. I did everything a manager did, without the acknowledgement (verbal or monetary) for it.
In this new job, I feel very gun-shy, and in talking with my boss this morning, I suddenly realized why: I feel just like I did years ago when I came out of an abusive relationship.
Now that I can see this, I can understand better the corresponding difficulty in maintaining my weight-loss/healthier eating difficulties, and can better evaluate what I need to do to re-build my self-confidence and self-worth. The last three days have been a start with learning to walk again.
I am going back to focusing on the minute-by-minute, day-at-a-time strategy I started with last June. I have to work on remembering how good it felt to walk every morning, and how good the quality of my sleep was. I have to remember what my goal is, and keep it in the forefront of my mind instead of letting it dangle around as I have been doing.
I have to remember that I am worth it.
**Thank you, HealthyAshley, for inspiring me with your blog about whole wheat graham crackers!