Wednesday, February 29, 2012
A&I Blog February into March
My Feb stunk. I went to doc and found my numbers were all bad (partly because I got a shot that increased my glucose) and my pain level has been horrid and I was pmsing when I went to doc so that didn't do me any good and I realized today that normally I have SAD this time of year which explains why I keep bopping into depression but not staying and feel like I'm hoovering on the edge all the time (which in a way is worse that just getting into it because at least then you can work on getting through it). So, anyways, my inner kiddie threw a month long tantrum and while I kept trying to get back on track she derailed me after a few days every time. Oh, we also had the audit at my job this month which is pretty much ALL on me, which didn't help the stress any as I was working weekends most of Jan and Feb. (I have a M-F 9-5 job)
Now that I know what the challenges are, am having a plan to actually DO IT and "meet" my inner kiddie this weekend and see if we can establish some doable ground rules I hope to be able to GET back on track and STAY back on track.
The toughest day for me is probably going to be the day I get the results (or if I get them that day then) from my neurosurgeon appointment on 3/15 whom I'm seeing for my neck/cervical spine issue which is causing anywhere from constant "hi there!" pain to sharp shooting "KILL ME!!" pain depending on how I turn my neck, cough, sneeze, etc. I'm NOT a vicodin fan and I actually broke down and got some and went through like 10 of them so far in the past 2-3 months which for me is a LOT! especially since I'm taking 1/2 at a time.
Inner kiddie tantrums related to pain, hormones, stress, etc. // "meet" my inner kiddie and work on establishing ground rules and loving on her to reduce anxiety and tantrums. Include acceptable snack "cheats" to allow her to not feel deprived (sugar free and low-carb stuff) (I know this isn't ideal, but if it can allow me to stick to a BETTER diet then it's better than constantly going off and having a bad diet)
Hormones-PMS // keep track and a week before (I was a week early this month) lay in a "PMS SNACK" bag of ON plan goodies (pork rinds, sugar free chocolate)
Stress // work on getting in 5-15 min meditation daily (do my meditation CD's or youtube
Pain // TAKE a pain killer!! I don't like taking them (emotionally/psychologically especially as I work in an environment that deals with a lot of abusers and chronic pain pts who have become addicted) but I know I NEED to rely on them short term
SAD-depression // try to get 10 minutes of sun a day and walk daily.