Wednesday, February 29, 2012
I'll admit it - I'm completely disappointed in myself right now. My motivation seems to have gone out the window lately and I don't know why. I'm stuck. Do I want to get to a "healthy weight"? Of course I do! Then why don't I "just do it"? I DON'T KNOW!! I will halfheartedly go through the motions of logging my food. I'll get through lunch and then when I get home, I just forget about it. I'll complete a couple of workouts a week, but nothing that is *really* doing my body any good.
And then there's my sweet tooth. I have no idea what's going on with me. I am craving sweets ALL THE TIME right now and it's driving me crazy. It seems like I'm in a vicious cycle:
I crave the sweets
I eat the sweets
I run out of steam because the sweets wear off
I *know* that they're horrible for me, but do you think that stops me?
I don't know.
But, maybe I do. My work situation is a little weird right now and I could be emotionally eating. For about 3 months starting in mid-March I'll be working 20 hours a week in one department and the other 20 hours in another. It's temporary and a really great opportunity for me and I'm actually really excited. The problem is that a co-worker is resistant because she is afraid all of my work will fall on her. This is not the case. I've worked it out so my work will be distributed to 2 other people for the 3 months I am gone. But still she complains and makes me feel like crap about it. Constantly. As the time draws near for me to leave there are comments made and her attitude towards me has changed. I know I shouldn't let it bother me, but it does. I'm human.
I guess I need to stop myself from feeling this way, but how? ARGH! I can't let my fitness get derailed by one person. I am better than that!
Just feeling down about the whole thing. Any suggestions??