Is that really me???
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Well...I signed up over a week ago, and here I am. Nothing accomplished, no motivation. I am writing this blog tonight because about 15 minutes ago, I was in my room folding laundry, and i turned to face none other than the full length mirror. Wow. Thats all I can say. I had to laugh to keep from crying. All of he sudden, it was like I seen myself for the first time for actually how big I really am. I am a full size 16, I could probably wear an 18 very comfortably. I told myself that when I was outgrowing my 14's, that as long as I stayed comfy in a 16, it was fine but I would NEVER become an 18. Well...truth be told, if I stop lying to myself, I AM an 18. My baby brother is getting married in July, and I have to be ready! I dont want to focus all of my weight loss on that particular event, tho, b/c Im afraid that once that gets here, it will all come back. I WANT TO CHANGE MY LIFESTYLE!! My mind is so onboard, its ridiculous, but I cant get going. I am using the excuse that the gym I signed up for does not open until mid April (a new Planet Fitness is opening and I got in on early registration) so I guess that I feel like I dont have to do anything , or be responsible until then. However, I need too, at the very least, start walking...that will even help me to be somewhat ready to take on daily workouts and not be so drained. Question is, how do I get motivated when I am on my own? There is 1 thing that I have been doing...I am not catholic (Baptist :) , but the girls in my office all stopped something for lent, so I included myself (1st time I have ever observed it, dont know alot about it) but anyway, I gave up sweet tea - and let me tell you - that is HUGE for me! I am from TN and I love me some sweet tea, and I mean..sweet! But since the 22nd, I have only drank water. Now I can have other things, but I have only opt'd to drink water. I did start flavoring it about 3 days ago...just to change it up. So, I guess once I think about it, that is something...right??? Geez - this is really hard. I do need to realize that I have totally let myself go and I am...well...fat. I need to take care of my body, not only for obvious reasons, but health reasons as well. Well, Im not sure anybody will read this, but if you happen too, a little encouragement will do me some good. Sorry I was all over the place, I just needed to vent. I sat down with my computer and automatically went to browse facebook, but something told me to come here to SP instead, Im glad I did. I had no intentions of writing a blog, but it has made me feel better. Ok. Im gonna go, Biggest Loser is coming on in 30 min, so gotta get the kiddos ready for bed and see if I can get Bob, or Dolvett, to inspire me. Well, thanks again everybody. I need this....Everyone have a blessed night!!! :)