Tuesday, February 28, 2012
That's right, as of 1:12 this morning, I have attained 30 years of age. I have been asked how it feels. My answer has been: Tired. LOL. I had a fantastic weekend filled with many of my favorite people which resulted in very little sleep, but it was so worth it.
As of this morning I'm still hovering around 205. This month I really haven't weighed in a whole lot, my food has been so-so but mostly good, my exercise has been pretty sporadic. I didn't hit 199 by my birthday, but that is okay. I would, however, like to hit it by my trip at the end of March.
While listening to the Towers of Midnight audiobook I got reminded of something. I've been living my life for other people again, finding my happiness thru other people and what they bring in to my life. Now obviously I see nothing wrong with being happy about time spent with people who are special to me. But there have to be things in my life for me that make me happy independant of other people.
I've been spending the last couple weeks trying to figure out changes I've made this year that have been positive, but also changes this year that haven't been as positive, so I can move forward with a more balanced approach.
The main thing I have changed is made socializing a more important and frequent part of my life. I go out once or twice a week now, sometimes as a family, sometimes by myself. That's great! That does not need to change! However, I've been trying so much harder to stay connected with people via chat, facebook, message boards, email, etc, that I've been skimping on things like self care, exercise, sleep, etc, and that needs to change. I don't have to be glued to chat programs 18 hours a day exchanging random social pleasantries to show people I care about them. I could grab an hour long IM conversation or share a decent email every few days probably to better effect.
So March is going to see a dramatic refocus. Exercise is coming back on as a daily priority, at least 10 minutes a day. I've been watching lots of TV in the evenings with hubby or friends. That's great! I need to go back to exercising while watching. If I am watching netflix at my house, I have my gazelle, my weights, etc. If I am going to someone else's house, surely I could take a walk, or I can take along my hand weights and do ST.
I've gotten lazy on foods, especially dinner. Gonna work on that too, but to be honest, I fear biting off more than I can chew (hahahahaha), so I'm going to focus on exercise primarily. I KNOW that when I am exercising every day, everything else seems to fall into place for me. I take better care of myself cause I'm all stinky with sweat (showers, lotions, pampering, etc). I sleep better because I've expended energy instead of being sedentary all day (6:45am-5:45pm in a car or at work, then sitting to watch TV, then laying down in bed. no wonder I haven't slept as well). I eat better because I don't want to "undo" my workout (I burned 300 calories on the gazelle, do I want to eat that 360 calorie candy bar?). My love life is better because I'm more confident (confidence is sexy) and more energetic (do I need to explain this one? really?).
So... exercise. I leave on March 28th. My goal will be at least 10 mins of exercise a day, every day, Feb 28th - March 28th.