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Alcohol Really ?

Monday, February 27, 2012

I never knew how much it would change my dearest loved ones personality when he reached for the first beer can. He said he didn't drink. Honest.

That can changes his charming personality so suddenly. I never know if he is going to be bubbly and cheerful or raging angry.

Little did I know that the pile of now empty cans - would make me to blame for all of life's problems.

Even when I don't argue back. (I don't have a fighting temperament.) Instead I slink away to the back room and quietly read a book hoping for a peaceful day. The cat knows to hide. . .

If only I had a crystal ball to see into the future. . .

How my heart would break.

How the tears would flow

With each drop he takes.

I still love him so very much. I pray every day for him to heal, for him to desire treatment. Please hear my prayers God.

Please God Heal him.





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EMMAEKAY 4/11/2012 5:24PM

    Please call al-anon. They can link you with resources to cope with the situation, and they can help you form a plan of action to get control of your life back. Please seek out a counselor, first and foremost for yourself.

You don't have to live this way.

Love shouldn't hurt.

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OLDERDANDRT 2/28/2012 9:44PM

    Prayers for your DH to stop drinking and become the loving DH you are missing and really needing now. emoticon

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NATPLUMMER 2/28/2012 9:38PM

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NOPAYNENOGAIN 2/28/2012 2:51PM

    Been through that myself...

It's hard...
Keep yourself safe and keep praying.

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SHELBY2050 2/28/2012 12:59PM

    "Been there, done that" - after 10+ years, I had enough :( Apparently the "d" word (divorce) brought him back to reality. On my husband's insistence, we attended counseling - the very first session the therapist stated "Men think alcohol makes them more relaxed, more fun. All it does it make them angry". You are worth more than you will ever know - someday you will understand that it's not you (or him talking) - it's the alcohol taking control. PLEASE put yourself first :)

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KABOOPER 2/28/2012 12:42PM

    Sending prayers for you and for your DH. hopefully you have recommended treatment for him. just because he does not see it, does not mean you should stop trying to help him see.
Lord, watch over you.
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3016DEBRA 2/28/2012 12:06PM

  I teared up reading your blog...it brought back memories. I'll keep you in my prayers. emoticon emoticon

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SIMPLIFYLIFE 2/28/2012 10:53AM

    Prayers sent your way. So much wonderful words already said...reach out for support.. even if just through here, however if you can find something in person I think it would be so much more beneficial and healthy for you. Please don't let yourself be in danger.

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MORTICIAADDAMS 2/28/2012 9:49AM

    Been there, done that and it was so not worth. My ex dumped me and it turned out to be the best thing that ever happened to me.

I would suggest that you contact Al-Anon. They can help. Drinking problems usually appear to me to be a form of narcissism. Maybe he will be willing to give up drinking for himself. They seldom will for their loved ones.

I'm with a teetotaler now and love it. 17 years of Hell with the drinker followed by 29 years of bliss with the thinker.

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BAKER1009 2/28/2012 7:20AM

    Sorry to hear this. Please make sure you take care of yourself. Al-non, which someone else mentioned, is a great place if you need to reach out.
Hugs!!

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MAMABUGAZ 2/28/2012 2:15AM

    Will send up a prayer too.

~ Faith

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SUSIEPH1 2/28/2012 1:16AM

    So Very Sorry !!.
Please Take Care and seek help if you need too ...
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_RAMONA 2/28/2012 1:08AM

    May your every day be all you need it to be. May an all abiding peace fill your thoughts, rule in your dreams each night, and conquer all your fears. May God manifest himself in ways you have never before experienced. May your joys be fulfilled, your dreams be closer, and your cares be lifted. I pray that faith enters a new height in you, that your territory be enlarged, and that fulfillment is just one step closer.

MAY GOD ABUNDANTLY BLESS YOU, and those you love, in every way that you require. May he hold you gently in the palm of his hand in a very personal way, and may you rest in the fullness of his love, his grace, his strength, his wisdom, his rescue, his redemption, his healing, his inspiration, his restoration and his mercy as you require it! May you carry in your heart always an extra special awareness of God's great love for you, may you feel his sweet and gentle touch upon your life, and may you see his miracles all around you. I pray in the name of Jesus Christ, our Lord. Amen!

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CHICSHAN004 2/27/2012 10:55PM

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CHANGINGHORSES 2/27/2012 9:02PM

    Loving an alcoholic is very hard. Please take care of yourself. Al-Anon was a great help to me when I was in your shoes. We cannot control them but we can control ourselves. Send you hugs and prayers.
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HIKETOHEIGHTS 2/27/2012 8:26PM

    emoticon Look for the rainbow in your life, it is there! emoticon

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REVIVINGFAITH 2/27/2012 8:02PM

    Please don't put yourself in danger for someone else's sake. That kind of love can't help anyone, although it is heartbreaking to realize it.

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HDHAWK 2/27/2012 8:00PM

    I'm sorry you're in this situation. Hugs to you.

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RUNNER12COM 2/27/2012 7:35PM

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LOVESLIFE48 2/27/2012 7:10PM

    emoticon emoticon hugs to you my friend. Remember, only he can help himself, he has to admit he as a problem. IT'S NOT YOU!!!!!! emoticon

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JIBBIE49 2/27/2012 7:05PM

    I hope you get away and find your own strength. Trying to "rescue" someone else just never works. I have never had to deal with a drunk and never would have, but I do know there is counseling for YOU, as I remember reading a lot of "Dear Abby" and she'd recommend it. Susanne Sommers wrote a good book about her father being a drunk, and how it made her a person with no self-worth. I've never read it but have been told it is very good.

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SPIDERGIRL502 2/27/2012 6:48PM

    I'm praying for you. I can sympathize with your situation. My husband is almost 11 months sober. We've been through a lot over the years, but we made it through tough times and we're happier now. I'll pray for strength & happiness for you & your loved ones.

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FIFIFRIZZLE 2/27/2012 6:42PM

    Seems like you are both struggling at the moment. You are going through a very hard time, with a hysterectomy thrown into the mix. Be kind to each other as much as you are able, and you will get through.

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RAINTHIEF 2/27/2012 6:36PM

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MAGA99 2/27/2012 6:27PM

    amy God give u & ur loved one strength to deal with & to move forward

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KKINNEA 2/27/2012 5:34PM

    :(

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