Monday, February 27, 2012
I'm in the throes of some hardcore PMS today. My mood just spiraled in the last couple hours. Dang! I almost just lost it when I couldn't find how to add a blog entry.
Despite all my hard work, my pants are tight. I'm bloated. Telling myself I'm bloated doesn't help me feel physically more comfortable, though. I'm just going to vent. I feel sorry for myself that I don't get to diet the way other people can because of migraines. So I lose weight slooowly. And I just ate something with sugar in it. Sugar maybe isn't really an option for me because it seems to make me feel terrible. I went without it for so long that I don't think I was aware of what it does to me. I almost just started bingeing and then I realized one of my favorite songs was playing ("Expecting" by The White Stripes). And then I felt like I already have what I want inside me. I closed the refrigerator door and listened to the music. I don't know if I've ever stopped when I was about to binge. Even though I stopped myself, I still feel mad at myself that I was going to do that, I thought I was over that. I feel like I'm going to cry. This is all PMS.