Monday, February 27, 2012
It's been ages since I've posted a blog here and thought it was about time to submit an entry. For those of my Spark friends that have been keeping up with me, ya'll know that I have been on again/off again here. My absence has definitely made a difference in how I've been managing my eating and exercise (or lack thereof). While these may sound like excuses for allowing myself to again put on some weight, it's just the everyday occurrences in my personal life that have added to using food as a comfort. Last year my brother-in-law (that I've known since I was 9 years old) suffered not one but two strokes. It has been hard for him but he has persevered and is making a slow recovery. Six months after he had his crisis, my mom suffered a stroke as well. It was heartbreaking to say the least since she is so severely handicapped due to years of rheumatoid arthritis. Truly I believe there is no stronger woman in this world than my mom. She has handled the disease, the loss of my dad and this stroke with such grace...I am extremely proud of her. But nonetheless it has been so hard to watch. There's a part of me that wishes I could give my mom a big kiss and hug to make it all better but I can't. Added to the mix I've been dealing with my oldest son who has heard his calling to serve our country in the Naval Nuclear program. As a mom we worry for our kids no matter what age they get to be. He's perfectly capable of taking care of himself I realize, but the mom in me wonders where the Navy will take him with our country and the entire world suffering with much conflict. Long and short of this is that sometimes the weight on our shoulders gets to be a bit much. I know it only adds character and growth from a personal perspective, but I do wish a little less character building were in the cards for me.
I'm not one to normally think of all the things that can drag a person down....I like to be optimistic and cheerful! So with this blog I am sort of leaving these worries at the door so to speak, and I will start anew with eating better, tracking my food and incorporating exercise back into the mix.
I cannot tell you all how much it's meant to have my Spark friends to support me, to cheer for me and encourage me along the way. I thank God for each and every one of you and look forward to what we all have ahead of us in 2012. Thanks ya'll for being my friend and life support.