Today, I had a HUGE breakthrough...and it came MUCH earlier than I expected!
In order to understand how amazing this is for me, you have to know that two years ago, I was planning on trying out for roller derby and I had a terrible accident. I was in my FIRST practice session skating and I fell at the rink and broke my ankle, both bones in my wrist and shattered my elbow. My entire right side was destroyed. It took about a year for me to fully recover, with 3 months unpaid leave from work. At the time, I had 3 very small children. My husband had to drop out of college to take care of the family. I couldn't do anything. It was a NIGHTMARE.
It's been about a year since the physical therapist declared my bones "fully healed" and I have done quite a bit of exercise since then (with a gap from July to now, when I had just given up on health altogether).
So, yesterday I was at my "Made To Crave" Bible Study (week 2) and was telling my group that I feel like my issues with food/health have kept me from victory, specifically in the fact that I feel like I can never do anything fun again because I'm afraid of re-breaking my ankle and elbow. It makes me very upset and I told them, "I can't even run! I've tried and I just can't do it!" But, I've always wondered if I really physically can't run or if it was just a mental block, completely based on fear. I suspected it was the latter.
Yesterday evening, I got my 6 yr old and 9 yr old and took them for a walk on the trail by our house. About halfway through our 1.5 mile walk, I said to my daughter, "Should I try to jog to that sign? Just to see if I can do it?" She said she'd race me. Of course she won, but I was shocked because I actually jogged!!! My 9 yr old was behind me and she started shouting, "Mommy is jogging!!!!! Oh my gosh!!!" After that short distance, I felt like I wanted to jog again! I ended up jogging, then walking, then jogging the entire way and I felt AMAZING!!! No pain. Just sweet, sweet joy.
I am beyond excited about this. And now I want to go again today! I definitely want to take it in stride, though, and not overdo it at first. Wouldn't want to get hurt or burn out.