Monday, February 27, 2012
I have been here every day since 1/3/12 (except the one day when my electricity was knocked out from the torrential rain!). At the beginning I was all excitement and motivation. That was until I faced another episode of my recurrent Upper Respiratory Infection. This left my vulnerable, tired, and burned out. I really struggled to rebound and I'm exhausted!
This led to less exercise and I found myself feeling hungry every minute of the day! Awful! I felt like the person I started as this year was lost inside of all of this. Today was the first day since I started that I went over my calorie range. I could see this coming because I have been found myself caught in a cycle of late-night eating (because I couldn't fall asleep) and then trying to keep in my calorie range during the day. I could feel that cycle closing in on me. Earlier I found myself standing in the kitchen thinking, "I'm hungry and I want to eat!" Yikes! The good news is that I haven't spun entirely out of control. The better news is that looking at my calories, looking at the range, feeling the disappointment that I let this cycle continue has served as a reminder that this is a life change.
Tomorrow I will start again.