Monday, February 27, 2012
I'm feeling annoyed.
I was cleaning the kitchen the other day and found a bag of Swedish fish. Still fresh and chewy. Not my favorite candy. Ate a couple, forgot about the rest. My photography major roommate was doing a photo shoot with cookies and then I hid the cookies, as per her request, so that she wouldn't eat them.
I was good and didn't eat them either.
But then I ran eight miles today and I ate everything, but EVERYTHING I could get my hands on. Now I add whatever calories I burn in a day to the minimum 1200 so that I don't go into starvation mode, so when I run higher mileage, I have a generous amount to eat and am still able to lose weight. So I ate my 1900-2000 calories.
And then I ate even more. And now my tummy is overfilled, I don't feel good physically, and I don't feel good mentally or emotionally.
I realize I can't take my decisions back, and in the long run, tonight really won't set me back that much, I'll just have to work a little bit harder this week to recoup my losses. But how do you deal with the frustration, or guilt, or whatever? Even though getting off track and getting back on track is the matter of one meal, how do you not beat yourself up about it?