Sunday, February 26, 2012
Pushing, pushing, and pushing as hard as I can, but then the road block appears. That's how Ive felt the last several years. Every time I start to make some progress the road block pops ups in front of me, like some silly stunt in a Bugs Bunny cartoon. If I try to go around, it grows longer, if I try to duck below, suddenly it's solid. Forget trying to climb it- it becomes a skyscraper of massive proportions.
So I get frustrated. I get down on myself. I cry, scream, and yell- and then I pull myself back together. Only to get momentum, start rolling, and run into the next road block. I look around and realize I haven't got much further than I was the first time; maybe an inch or two, a foot at the most. The cycle starts again. Frustration, depression - motivation, enthusiasm - discouragement, hindrance - inspiration, passion... you get the idea. So what's a girl to do? These roadblocks keep materializing with no was around, under or over. Well, the obvious thing- go through.
Right. And I'm a house ghost at Hogwarts and can sail through walls. I don't think so.
It's not going to be that easy. It's going to be a difficult process filled with soul-searching, and possibly heart-wrenching moments. But it has to be done. I can no longer back up and keep running at this roadblock. It's time to face my demons, and that's exactly what I will attempt to do. No, strike that. Thats exactly what I WILL do. I WILL accomplish my goals, and if this is the way to make that happen- then this is what I am going to do.
Starting this week I am going chase down my demons. After I find them, I am going to figure out what I need to do to exorcise them. I invite you to join me. It's not going to be easy- but hey, not much worthwhile ever is.
So here's to chasing demons, ridding ourselves of negativity from the past, and busting through those roadblocks that stand between us and success.