Sunday, February 26, 2012
I was thinking last night about how different this time on Spark feels to me. I have such a feeling of confidence (even if it HAS been only 3 weeks so far). Reading over the Blogs on the site, I come across a lot of references to the "click". Sparkers will say "something just clicked for me this time. It all makes sense to me now."
What do you suppose that "click" is? Is it faith that the system works? Is it karma, meaning it is just SUPPOSED to happen this time and so it is happening? Is it the alignment of our stars that tells us if we tried to do it any other time we would have failed??
I know for me that some of it is connected to recent deaths in my family (4 siblings, my mom and a niece within 2 years) which resulted in a real wake up call that every day is precious.
It's also connected to the fact that my oldest daughter is getting married in June and I have set myself a (realistic) goal that I would love to reach (one-derland!) by then.
It is also connected to the fact that one of my sisters who is macrobiotic spent 5 weeks with us this winter . As I watched the great thoughtfullness and energy she put into her food preparation and how she honored her body, I was struck by how careful she was about making sure it was high quality and served a nurturing purpose while still tasting good.
But finally, I would have to say that the click for me is most probably the Lord. I will digress here with one of my favorite jokes:
There once was a man who loved the Lord and trusted in Him with every fiber of his being. One day a mighty flood came to his part of the country and the town he lived in was innundated. He prayed to the Lord and asked for rescue. After a bit , while he was standing on his flooded front porch, a 4 wheel drive vehicle sloshed through the water and the driver yelled out: "The river is still rising. Hop in back and I'll drive you to safety!"
The man replied, "No thank you! I trust in the Lord and he will deliver me. "
As the water continued to rise, he climbed onto the roof of his house. A small motorboat came by and the driver said: " The river is still rising. Hop into my boat and I will take you to safety!"
"No thanks!" he replied. "I trust in the Lord and He will deliver me!"
The waters continued to rise and the man climbed onto the roof of his house. After a while a helicopter came by and a man with a bull horn shouted down to him:"The river is still rising. Grab onto the rope and we will haul you to safety!"
But the man replied: "No thank you! I have called upon the Lord and He will deliver me."
Well the river did indeed continue to rise and the man drowned! He was so shocked when he showed up in Heaven. "Lord, " he said. "Where were You?! I called upon you to save me and You let me drown!!!!"
The Lord replied to him, "Well, I sent you a truck, a boat and a helicopter! What more did you expect???"
So I am guessing that the clicks are all around me. The Sparkers, my sisters, my lost siblings, my daughter...these are my truck, my boat and my helicopter. I just had to open my eyes and recognize them for what they are: the clicks that the Lord has sent to me to tell me the choice is mine to make.
What were your clicks?