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A Small Crisis Situation

Saturday, February 25, 2012

I am gaining weight again. And this time I'm panicking, because , try as I might, I just don't seem to be able to stop shoveling food down my gullet! I have gained so many inches that all I can wear are my "fat" clothes, and they're plus-Plus sizes. I know I sound as if I am whining about something trivial, but when I catch my reflection in a mirror, I stop and think, "Who is that fat woman over there?" And then, when my inner self acknowledges my outer self in shock and disgust, what do I go and do? EAT!! It's getting harder and harder to cross my legs because they're so large, and the stomach! Oh boy, we won't even go there! And my family is so loving and kind and polite about my appearance, but I am sure that their real thoughts are more in the line of,"Why is she doing this to herself? Can't she see that she gets fatter every day?" And I am in a crisis situation. I know I can join the Twelve Step Program of Overeaters Anonymous and go to their meetings and whine and gripe to them, but Sparkpeople's where my heart is, and I so desperately want to succeed and be an inspiration to at least one person! I know there is a God, and I'm begging Him: HELP ME!! emoticon
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ASHAIXIM 2/29/2012 5:12PM

    I have SOOOO been there!! This past week was one!! I'm doing low carb and gave up sugar for Lent... RIGHT! I guess those 3 candy bars and the pasta didn't count! ALL I can do is get back up and start over, right? emoticon emoticon emoticon

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1CRAZYDOG 2/26/2012 10:40AM

    Ok, you've blogged about this. That's a start. Maybe it would be a good idea to go ahead and join Overeaters IF you think you can get support. Therein lies the key . . . nothing says you have to quit Spark if you go to Overeaters! You have to get the support where you need it and only you can make that decision.

The simplest thing I can tell you besides, of course, tracking your nutrition is this:

When I'm under stress or otherwise feeling that urge to eat and I know in my head and heart I should not be feeling hungry is ask myself these questions -- what am I feeling that is making me want to eat??

H unger
A nger
L onliness
T iredness

IF the answer is anything but hunger, then food is not going to solve the problem. THEN the job is to figure out what the real problem is and figure out a solution to THAT problem.

Call a friend.


Read a good book

Take a walk


Just a few ideas. Hope this helps.

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HIPPYCAT 2/25/2012 11:57PM

    If you're already doing this, my sincerest apologies, but you need to journal EVERY BITE YOU TAKE.

If nothing else, sometimes I consider eating something and think to myself, "It just isn't worth the paperwork."



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