Spoke to soon
Saturday, February 25, 2012
A couple of weeks ago I posted a blog about how great my running had been going. How far I've come & how my mind stop trash talking me. Well....I spoke to soon. That Sunday I went out & ran an 18km. It wasn't my best run, but it wasn't my worst run either. My quads & hips were kind of sore/tight. I got through it but I was glad when it was over.
Last Sunday I went out to do my last LSD..20km. I made it maybe 2.5km & was hating every minute of it. But I pushed on to 3.5 km & then decided to walk the 3.5km home. I just couldn't do it. I don't know what my problem was. I was so upset with myself that I went to bed when I got home & beat myself up about my failure. After an hour of this I talked to a couple of friends & F#1 one told me I'm to hard on myself & F#2 told me to try again tomorrow.
On Monday I was telling F#2 what was going on in my head. She told me I need to find my love of running again & I'm putting to much pressure on myself over the training & other things in my life. I need to go run & enjoy it, whether it be 5km or 30km. Just go and enjoy it. She was right. So I suited up & set out. After my warm up I went to take my first running step & fear took over. Why am I so scared of running all of a sudden? But I took the step...now I'm not gonna lie & say it was great from the beginning. It took a few kms for me to get into it, then it got challenging. I keep running & finished 20km. I wrote alot of blogs in my head to help me through it. (It's sounds weird, but when I need somewhere to go in my head while running, I write Sparkblogs. I've never actually wrote any of the blogs on the site but I've wrote tons of them in my head.)
Wednesday & Thursday rolls around & I'm not feeling good...I'm exhausted. My body is tired. So I took both days off of all activities & went to bed early both nights. I woke up Friday feeling better. I even went out for a 5km run & I got my running groove back. WooHoo!!
I guess you have to have bad run days in order to fully appreciate the great, even good, run days.
I'm feeling much better today..It's been a bit of a struggle for me this week. But I feel like I'll be able to run my 1/2 next weekend & I decided I'm only setting one goal on Sunday...and that's to finish.