Friday, February 24, 2012
So usually when lent rolls around I tend not to be very particular about giving something up, since I wasn't really raised with that tradition. However, this year I've really been needing a spiritual kick in the pants, and my church challenged us to go on a "Daniel Fast", which is essentially a vegan diet without processed foods (including things like pasta or bread). That's just way too hard core for me! Instead, I decided to go pescatarian--vegetarian but I'm still going to eat seafood.
it's day 2 and this alone has been hard enough! Yesterday my dad and I ate smashed potatoes with parsley from the garden, garlic, lemon, and parmesan cheese, and then mushroom ravioli. Delish! Today, I spent all day thinking about what we were going to eat for dinner. For some reason salads or veggie stirfries just don't sound appealing to me, even though I love the veggie stirfries from the food trucks at school. Most meals that I came up with just sounded so bare...because meat was missing. Mind you, I probably wasn't very creative, but I'd think of something, and my brain would go..."huh. That doesn't sound satisfying. I wonder why....oh! it's because it's missing meat, mm, MEAT!"
I've grown up as a meat and potatoes (more like meat and rice) kinda girl all my life. Meat was the star of the show. Sure, we had vegetables at every meal, but they were like the sidekick that comes along for the ride, or the little sister that you have to include at your birthday party because it's the right thing to do. I know I've had vegetarian meals in the past, salads, soups, quiches, omelettes, stirfries, summer rolls, and seafood for crying out loud, but for some reason looking forward into 40 days of meatless meals just feels like I need a ticker to count down to that last meal. To be honest, it feels a little crazy! And in my head, I don't really think it should be that hard, but my stomach keeps muttering and complaining about how difficult this will be.
After just TWO DAYS in to this challenge, I'm finding out just how meat-centric my diet really is. Even sandwiches for lunch have to be revamped since turkey is out of the picture. And no bacon and eggs for breakfast anymore! (I don't even eat bacon and eggs that often, but just the knowledge that I CANT have it makes it feel so much more like deprivation!)
My brain is so disturbing and strange! haha But I'm glad I'm doing this--I'm already learning a lot about how I see food and sustenance, and I can't wait for a healthier outlook where veggies and fruits (not beef) are what's for dinner.