Thursday, February 23, 2012
and I am struggling!
Right before I got pregnant with our first child I was a size 8/10. I still wanted to lose about 20 lbs and based on the BMI chart I was still considered overweight for my height. (Who decided that?)
So now that I am 50 lbs overweight I am seriously down and out about it.
Everyone keeps saying "you just had a baby!" but I wonder exactly how long I can use that for an excuse? I only have 2 pairs of jeans that I alternate all week and one of those pair are maternity jeans....how sad is that! My little one is 3 months old and I feel that I should have lost at least half of what I want to lose by now. Am I being to hard on myself?
I see all of these women at work that seem so petite and skinny & it depresses me b/c I am still rocking the maternity pants :(
I will say that I am venturing out this weekend to buy 1 more pair of pants b/c you can't wear a belt with maternity pants and yea, my stomach isn't holding a human any more, but I just find it sad that I am still in them.
I worked out 5 days a week before Eva came along....now I'm lucky to get in a 20 min workout at home. Two coworkers and I are walking on our 30 min lunch break at work which makes me feel better, but how much longer do I have to hold on to this weight?
No there isn't a "quick fix" or a magical supplement that will make me skinny overnight, but DANG IT when will this get easier? How much longer do I have to wait to get into my "old jeans"? I've always ate well but the sleep & exercise seem to be so scarce these days. I ate well during pregnancy but my tail bone killed me any time I tried to workout. I gained 10 lbs every month for the first 3 months without even trying. I didn't crave bad things & when I did it was in moderation. Could going from 5 days a week working out to NOTHING really have had that big of an effect on my body?
I pray I'm not doomed with this weight. I just wish I could have been one of the lucky ones and lost all the excess weight within 2 months of having her. I breastfed but it didn't seem to take anything off for me....at least not very fast like I heard it would.
I realize this isn't a very positive blog and after looking at my past blogs I probably should try to look at the brighter side of things but when does this get easier?