Is it war???
Thursday, February 23, 2012
So the other day I was talking to my friend Shannon at work, yes I work with a Shannon in my office, and she successfully lost like 30lbs on Weight watchers.. I was saying how I ate a donut, which I NEVER do, so I was talking about how many calories it was, and thinking about how long I would have to work out on the bike to work it off. And she said, "well sometimes you have to have fun".
And I thought, really, have fun??? This weight loss adventure has been anything but fun for me. I eat right and work out, but have not been losing weight.. but I have not gained either. Lately I have heard a lot of people telling me how great I look. I do look better in my clothes and my belly has gone way down.. so there is a plus to it.
But back to this thing about having fun and this being war. War is such a strong word when it comes to me taking care of my self.. war might not be the appropriate word for this weight loss journey. It does not feel right. I love the fact that I am eating better than I have my entire life. Good lord the bad habits I have over come.. Yesterday I had a bean and cheese burrito on the fly during lunch, only one and nothing else! That was a major accomplishment because in the past I would have ordered a meal and ate everything and drank like 2 or 3 sodas. I would have been so overstuffed I would not have been able to eat again until the next day.
And let us talk about the fun aspect of this adventure. Not!!! I really have not had any fun with this at all. I like the fact that I can work out on an elliptical for 30 mintues at a time.. really 30 minutes!!! When I started it could only do like 3 and I was dying!!! I have a hard time staying motivated and staying on track. But there is no real fun factor in this for me. I get on that darn scale once a week and it is depressing to me that it will not budge. But, I keep trucking along for the fact that I am taking care of myself for the long haul.. I may not ever be 120 lbs again but I probably will live longer and more healthy because I exercise 5 days a week and eat better.