Injury & Self contemplation
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Are you bad at sticking up for yourself and your health?
I am. I've had a knee injury for a couply months that has grown steadily worse. I did see my doctor at the beginning of the month, and she prescribed 4 weeks of physical therapy. I can understand why the therapy helps, but it wasn't helping me. It took a full weekend of panic attacks, pain, and crying on my husband's shoulder to get up the enrve to tell the Physical Therapist that I think the knee needs an MRI. She of course asked if I'd been walking or standing alot. No, and, Logically, standing for 6 minutes to take a shower shouldn't leave me in so much pain I'm nauseated. There is something wrong in there, and I finally have the guts to do something about it.
My mother had the same problem. Her tendency to not stick up for herself (combined with a really high deductable) made her avoid going to a second doctor when her regular physician (who had treated her mother for cancer) said her exhaustion was just a case of Mono - despite the negative mono tests. It was actually lung cancer, which of course, she died from. Not that a knee injury is going to kill me, but I've spent most of my life since my mother died in my early 20s trying not to become that passive, depressed doormat. She had some amazing qualities, but the bad ones mean she isn't here to enjoy her grandchildren.
So when I go to therapy today, there will be a prescription for an MRI waiting for me. And they'll probably never know how hard it was for me to get.