Thank you all for your kind words of encouragement on the loss of my grandmother.
I know the pain and sorrow of losing my grandmother will take time to heal. Some moments I am doing wonderful, feeling like I could handle anything and even nearly euphoric... and then just moments later something can trigger the tearflow and it feels like I will never be happy again. I reckon the fluctuations of my emotions are normal right now... at least I hope so... then again, I don't care. As someone told me, they are my emotions to feel and when I am ready, I can be happy. :) thank you.
My husband is trying to develop plans to help the happiness for me... as well as for my whole family. He's cooking up plans for a Floridian vacation. I love Florida... lived there for a bit as a child, visited many times since then, but it has been 14 years since my last visit and I am soooo ready. My youngest has never seen the ocean in real life... and she's 11!! So I really hope we can make this happen.
Not only will it be a much needed vacation, it will be wonderful incentive to get my rear in gear! Get Fit for Florida! :) So if I'm going to temporarily change my latitiude :)... I will have to permanently change my attitude! And it can start today (I'm having one of my euphoric moments!) I am so very psyched about this!!!
March 1st (one week from tomorrow) I will be going to see Jimmy Buffett in concert. I am psyched about this, too! Gosh... how can I explain... I know Mamaw would want me to be happy and healthy... and I know I need a new attitude about my weight and health... so NOW is the time. HOW, you wonder, does JB fit into that??? It's the music ... living life free of worry, chillin' out, being happy, basking in the sunshine with a smile and flip flops. :) well... for me that sounds perfectly wonderful.
The weather here is prodding my new attitude... it has been spring-like and sunny. I've been blasting my JB music, I've been pouring over tropical pictures... taking them in and dreaming of the day I can visit all those beautiful beaches... paradise.
Ya know what.... I need to celebrate that my grandmother is now in paradise... heaven with those she loves... including our God and our Savior! I am missing her here on earth so very much... but I know that she is loving where she is right now!
I want to embrace life and make memories and be happy, no worries... and it's all in the attitude. ...even when there are bills to pay and there's nothing left over... even when the house is a mess, or I'm still a size 18, or I'm missing my Mamaw so very much!!! I want to be happy... I want that attitude. It's time I grasp it and enjoy this life!
And sparkfriends... if you see me feeling down, posting the blues... remind me to re-read this blog... it makes me feel good!
~~Hula Girl at Heart~~