Hey everyone, I hope you are all well and doing well with your weight loss and fitness plans. It's been a busy last 2 months for me. I luckily found a new job in London and work one-to-one with an autistic child, who is good work with. I've moved to London and love being back there, although I am paying far too much rent and making a loss! I had surgery 2 weeks ago (on the 10th of Feb) and believe that I am not allowed to exercise for 1 -2 months, or even longer! I don't know exactly for how long but will ask the surgeon tomorrow when I see him. As strange as it sounds, I would love nothing more than to go out for a jog or lift some weights but I am definitely not allowed to either of those! I am still at my parents recovering and although it's nice to relax, I want to be active!
Just came out of hospital after spending 4 nights there (was only meant to say 1 night!) and now spending time with family.
Since I can't burn off calories, I've been trying to be more careful with how much I eat a day but am struggling to eat less than 1,600 cals a day. Yesterday was pancake day though and felt I should have some but what about the other days! I am at home, having lots of healthy food but cannot stop myself from eating too much! I definitely need to work on my portion sizes. Do you know that I have been with SparkPeople since 2008 I believe but am still in Stage 2 of the SparkDiet? That's the part where portion control comes into it! And yet, I have gone from 210lbs down to 147 lbs. Currently I am around 153lb, which I think is due to the inactivity after the surgery.
Goal 1 - must read up on stage 2 of SparkDiet and go through this stage! I have the SP book, so will continue reading it. Don't get me wrong, it's a great book but there's a lot to get through and I haven't finished it yet
Goal 2 - if I cannot do exercise, how can I lose weight? It's hard enough to lose excess weight when cutting calories alone and sticking to a low calorie range per day. I need to work out what I can do that won't test my body. When I get back to London, I suppose the only thing I can do is walk. I love to walk and explore London but the weather is generally bad and it's nearly dusk when I get back from work.
Sorry for my ranting but I feel like I am stuck in a rut that has been enforced on me. It's silly really because I should be happy with my surgery and how luckily it was approved and offered free on the NHS. I have been using some of my free time wisely and been searching and keeping record of loads of different clean eating recipes I can use that are good for me and keep me within the calorie limit per day. I even set up a complex excel sheet for me to input information and workout what meals I can make each day!
One thing I have noticed is that I rely on silly things like my weight on the scales as an indicator of success, which invariably people who want to lose weight do, but have read a couple of articles and blogs that have made me focus on the important things that I should be concentrating on like not tying up my self-esteem with my weight, to be happy with the shape that I am currently am, and to focus on health and fitness.
It's so easy to get side-tracked and obsessed with how many lbs we can get rid of in a week and lose sight of the fact that we are fitter and stronger than we were before, and that what we previously couldn't do, like run a mile, we can suddenly do. I need to remember this and focus on getting fitter and healthier than ever before, so it's a pity at the moment I can't exercise.