I am worth it.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

So, boy has 2012 been a ROUGH year for me, weight wise. It’s been so hard. I’ve gained some weight back and I feel like I am in such a struggle to get back on track. Some days, all I wanna do is give up. That damn voice in my head keeps telling me that I will never reach my goal and I’m not worth it. I keep trying to shut her up, but she keeps going and going and… I was starting to believe it… but... I KNOW I DESERVE BETTER THAN THIS. I broke down this morning and just cried – like one of those embarrassing ugly cries. (lol). I’ve been feeling so hopeless. I know I can do it so…. Why am I NOT DOING IT? I know I’m only giving like maybe 40% of my effort, which I know is better than nothing but… it’s not going to help me reach my goal. I do want this, so why am I not acting like I do by doing what needs to be done. Laziness, maybe? I don’t know… stress in my life? I know those are all excuses but… they are really hard to shut up from my mind. It’s such a mental freaking battle… but I’m here to say, ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. If I want this, I need to forgive myself for my mistakes and STOP DWELLING. Yes, I have made several mistakes in regards to my weight loss efforts this year but, there’s no better time to forgive myself and keep moving forward than TODAY. And that’s exactly what I am going to do. SO here, I am saying it now, I forgive myself of all the crappy food I have eaten over the last few months and all the times I didn’t go to the gym and perhaps I won’t be meeting my goal by summer, but I AM WORKING ON MY GOAL and THAT is the most important part. It’s not a race it’s a lifelong journey and I have to keep telling myself that b/c once I get to my goal I will then have to work to maintain b/c I do not want to yo-yo. So here’s to TODAY and I promise myself that every time I try to look to far ahead and feel like it’s overwhelming, I will remind myself that it is not a race and I am working on this ONE DAY AT A TIME and more importantly – I AM WORTH IT.

I need a support system!!! But it seems like the groups I joing don't have too many active members...
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  • *AMBER512
    Thanks for commenting on my Sparkiversary blog. I'm so glad that you took the message to heart. You are worth it! And you can do it. :)
    2194 days ago
    You can do this! I was in the same boat. This past fall I was working out but making poor food choices. The scale didn't budge. What really seems to have helped me maintain my motivation is setting up a system of rewards for myself. I have a set of rewards for weight loss but also for my behavior. So I get a reward if I food log and workout for four consecutive weeks even if the scale doesn't move. Last week I earned a manicure and a pedicure. I am saving them for a time when I feel low and might over indulge in sweets. This week I earned my 5 lb loss reward...a 90 minute massage. Just remember nothing is impossible. It's just a matter of setting yourself up to win. For me that means earning things I wouldn't normally give myself. There is a great website/Facebook motivation site I use too called Skinny Ms. Fitness. She is running an ab challenge that I am doing this week too.
    2194 days ago
    you can find in on my sparkpage.
    2194 days ago
    please don't beat yourself up when you fail! Instead, congratulate yourself for trying. Then try something different.

    “The only real failure in life is one not learned from.” ~Anthony J. D’Angelo

    “You have to have confidence in your ability, and then be tough enough to follow through.” ~Rosalynn Carter
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    2194 days ago
    i can emphathize with how you are CAN do this......

    look around for different groups that will be you speak spanish? the 2 spanish groups i belong to are always discussing different weight loss issues and having various monthly challenges which you can join if you so choose...i am sure there are similar english-speaking ones, altho i could not name any....ask around...good luck to you
    2194 days ago
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