Tuesday, February 21, 2012
So this is it - day 1 of ...well, a lot of days. Like so many people I have been trying to lose weight for years and have done some monumentally stupid things to try to achieve that weight loss. The weight always came back on.
I am one of nature's introverts - I have always thought I can handle things on my own but the fact that I am obese is showing me the opposite. I had a terrible time with depression and hid it (and tried to eat it) away. I have now learnt the overdue lesson that opening up and sharing with people actually helps. I cannot promise that I am always going to be able to do it - my first instinct when faced with a difficult situation is to clam up and/or run away.
Using Sparkpeople is a big change from what I would normally do. I am trying to break away from the bad old ways of the past and move forward. If I am honest right now I am feeling uncomfortable, vulnerable and exposed. However, 15 years of obesity is a sure sign that change has to come.
I do not know how many people, if any at all, will ever read this blog and you know what? It does not matter if all my blogs remain unread by others. It matters that I have the courage and the discipline to write them..
Time to take and deep breath and take the plunge.....