My switch is ON.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
I haven't run a mile straight in 13 years. Yesterday, I ran 1 1/4 miles straight! Yay! After walking for a little bit I ran another 3/4 mile to finish up at 3 1/4 miles. The most I had run without stopping before this was 1/2 mile(and that was only once!). It's days like these that truly justify all the hard work I've been putting in. LOVE IT!!
On another note...I'm getting married a week from today!! Yes, we are taking the leap on leap day. I've been trying to plan a wedding for years. In that time we have had 2 kids and moved across the state. Every time I'd try to plan it, I looked for a fun date(10/10/10 or 11/11/11). When I realized it was a leap year, I called my fiance and just said we should get married that day. He just told me to figure out what we needed. Last week, we got our marriage license and we are going back the 29th to have a simple ceremony in the courthouse. I've never dreamed of a big wedding. Sure, if I had tons of money and could hire someone to do it all, I would love a huge event. Other than that, I'm more than happy to say my vows in front of some family and go to dinner afterwards.
My switch is on. I can do anything I want. I've always wanted to lose weight. I make conscious decisions everyday on what I eat and how much I move. I've always dreamed of being a runner. I run. I've always wanted to complete a 5k. My first race is 3/3/12. I've been planning a wedding for years that I always put off, mainly because I wanted to be thin enough to feel good in a wedding dress. I'm getting married next week and I finally love myself enough that I'm going to feel good in whatever I'm wearing.
For years, I put off things that I wanted to do because I felt I needed to do them a certain way. I felt I needed to to be able to run a whole 5k before I would sign up. I felt that I needed to be "thin" to feel comfortable in a wedding dress. I felt I needed to save a ton of money to splurge on a wedding. I felt I wasn't strong enough to run. I felt I needed to lose weight to have a happier life.
I've finally realized that being an active role in my own life has made me happier and everything is just falling in place. If I waited for all these things, they would never get done. I've spent a lifetime watching others go after what they wanted, and I wished I could be like them. It's my turn.