Monday, February 20, 2012
I've been 39 days "sober" from binging and I have exercised in one form or another 47 days in a row. I believe I've lost about 10 pounds recently and I'm 30 down from my all time high.
I have been really craving cheeseburgers lately. Really craving them, like can't get them out of my mind. So I decided I would have one today and get rid of the craving. My goal is to eat like an "average" person would. A person without a binging problem eats what they crave and then moves on. I stopped by Jack In The Box and ordered one cheeseburger. To me this was a triumph.
I'm writing about this here because I think some of you may understand what I'm saying and because I'm too ashamed to write about this on my regular blog.
I can't remember the last time I went through through a fast food drive through and ordered just one of something. My regular order in bingeful days was two "value meals" and sometimes an extra such as cookies or a milkshake. I've done this on and off for years.
You may not be think that any fast food at all is a triumph but I assure you this is a breakthrough for me. I tracked that cheeseburger and stayed within my calorie range. I will not make the drive thru a habit but it feels good to have handled this craving like an average person would.