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Just One


Monday, February 20, 2012

I've been 39 days "sober" from binging and I have exercised in one form or another 47 days in a row. I believe I've lost about 10 pounds recently and I'm 30 down from my all time high.

I have been really craving cheeseburgers lately. Really craving them, like can't get them out of my mind. So I decided I would have one today and get rid of the craving. My goal is to eat like an "average" person would. A person without a binging problem eats what they crave and then moves on. I stopped by Jack In The Box and ordered one cheeseburger. To me this was a triumph.

I'm writing about this here because I think some of you may understand what I'm saying and because I'm too ashamed to write about this on my regular blog.

I can't remember the last time I went through through a fast food drive through and ordered just one of something. My regular order in bingeful days was two "value meals" and sometimes an extra such as cookies or a milkshake. I've done this on and off for years.

You may not be think that any fast food at all is a triumph but I assure you this is a breakthrough for me. I tracked that cheeseburger and stayed within my calorie range. I will not make the drive thru a habit but it feels good to have handled this craving like an average person would.
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CRANRANA 3/28/2012 4:12PM

  I just read this blog and it resonated with me mightily! You hit the nail on the head when you wrote that ordering 1 cheeseburger is a triumph...it certainly is!! Like you, if I was going through a drive through I'd order two meals (and of course two drinks--let them think I"m ordering for two). If we could eat like like a regular person, we'd be the SIZE of a regular person. Here at SparkPeople, we understand exactly what you mean, and trust me, we've been there too! Keep up the good work, you're doing a wonderful job.

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BLAHNIK27 2/22/2012 3:46AM

    I was just looking through my friends list the other day and thought 'Where is Paige'? and here you are! :)

I know exactly how you feel, and my biggest goal every day is to eat like an average person does.
Keep fighting the binges... Will power is like a muscle, the more you use it, the stronger it gets! :)

Kristy
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SUSIEMT 2/21/2012 10:55AM

    Good for you Paige! Keep up the good work! I know of what you speak!

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.DUSTY. 2/20/2012 10:57PM

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HEATHERNL 2/20/2012 7:54PM

    You are very brave for speaking out. Continue to blog about your triumphs and struggles. You have no idea who you may touch or help.

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NYMERIAV 2/20/2012 7:48PM

    You should be so proud of yourself! I share the binging issue- It's hard to stop when something tastes good, even when you're really not hungry. It's so great that you were able to stop with one cheeseburger, and even better that you're still able to keep within your goals for the day. Pat yourself on the back and write it up as another victory!

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BECKYB73 2/20/2012 7:25PM

    This IS HUGE!!!! I know, because I have the same monkey on my back in regards to Death Traps (or Drive Thrus for the uninitiated)

WAY TO GO!!! emoticon

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ANNEV2012 2/20/2012 7:14PM

    Small triumphs are to be celebrated...so emoticon

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