Monday, February 20, 2012
Getting back into Spark again, this time with a bit more vigor then last time. A bit frustrated, I gained 7 pounds since the last time I started and haven't even been eating badly (besides the holidays...those don't count ;) ) . I was recently diagnosed with Hypothyroidism so its been a bit of a process figuring out how all this works, if I need to eat differently etc. I find that oftentimes I don't actually eat enough, that its a bit of an effort to get all my nutritional goals in. So I'm not quite sure how I always seem to be gaining
. Although I admit I definitely have a hard time getting motivated to work out...so maybe my metabolism is slowly creeping along and not really working for me at all.
Well its a new start now! I figure what are my options really? Just keep gaining weight, being tired all the time? I have a life I want to live. I don't want to stand behind my weight and let it get in the way. I don't to do things that I subconsciously really want to do just because of my weight. I loved swimming...but I haven't put on a bathing suit since high school. I do like clothes, but I can never find anything that matches up with the idea of how I want to look and therefore I just feel defeated after. I used to weigh 120lbs at the end of high school...within a year or two I blew up to over 200. I attributed that to having a pasta buffet as the easiest meal option on campus but who knows. Maybe I was hypothyroid then, no way of knowing I guess. Because I was pretty active (no car on a large campus) I would walk miles everyday to class, or to get groceries.
Starting over now I'm putting the focus back on myself and feeling better, especially combating the symptoms of Hypothyroidism which makes me realllllllllll....llllllll...l
llll.....yyyyyyyy tired all of the time. I was a sleeper to begin with, my bed has always been my comfy place of refuge. I don't emotionally eat...I emotionally sleep. So with the Hypothyroidism I became depressed and fatigued. Started a generic medication (will be talking soon to my doc about going to Synthoid) and am feeling a lot more energized although I do have my bad days still. After doing a bit of research and talking to people on message boards and forums I decided to switch to a low carb diet...especially since I know how easily I react to them. Its been a few days now and nothing has changed...so for so drastic of a change for me I'm a little frustrated that nothing has happened yet. When I lost weight before I remember it essentially melting off. Just have to keep at it I suppose, and keep on sparking!