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Whitneys music

Monday, February 20, 2012

I was a music/song buff from age 5.I listened but I dont think I actually heard the words they sang until Whitney Houston came along.At one point I was going through a whole lot of depression.Back then women were hysterical not depressed.I was given one drug after another(UPPERS) to pull me out of the funk.We were stationed in Anchorage Alaska and the cold dark snowy days lead me into despair.We couldnt even walk outside without the danger of frostbite..I barely functioned through the dark cloak of medicine.I had two young girls,and I forced myself to get up and care for them.I spent many an hour crying or numb.One day while going to pick up my 6 year old(i was walking in SNOW with no boots on)my neighbor Lisa spotted me and picked me up.She gave me some coffee from a thermos and we sat in her truck waiting.I have noticed you moping around...Yeah but Im okay....Here...I took the package...who is this?I held a cassette...Whitney Houston,she's upbeat and young,you'll love her music!...I dont know,nothing helps these days...have you been to seek help?Yeah,several "SPECIALISTS" that all gave me the same drugs...Susan do you realize you could die from all those drugs?That really got to me...imagine your kids with no mom...her own mom died from an accidental overdose!You are in below zero temps without your boots or heavy coat and walking!I looked down and started are not alone girl!We left our kids with her older daughter and she escorted me to the hospital...She stayed by my side the entire time,they drew blood and I had 3x the amount of a drug like xanax in my system.I dont even remember taking it!Guess what they prescribed?Yep a sister drug to xanax!Lisa went crazy and yelled at every person there then asked for the Chief of Staff.I was hospitalized for three weeks and I saw Lisa everyday.She had brought me a walkman,batteries and of course Whitney.I listened and heard her words.She helped bring me back from the edge.I was seeing a "counselor" but he wasnt really interested in me and I eventually stopped going to him.Lisa became my therapy....we lunched,played with our kids in the park,rode bikes,flew kites,went to free concerts and watched HBO movies together.Sadly,Lisa was found passed away from a brain anyeurism right after my 28th birthday.Her husband asked me to speak at her funeral and I sang Greatest Love of all.Whitney died the day of Lisa's birthday.Lisa would have been 55 that day.I bought all of Whitneys music through the years and each time I would play it the first time,I would say cheers Lisa!I still play Whitneys greatest hits when I walk outside.Thank you Lisa and Whitney for love and inspiration and my LIFE!!! emoticonSUSAN
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    What a great loss, we will miss her and her music dearly... RIP Whitney.
    2124 days ago
    Thanks for sharing that story, that part of you, with us.

    2124 days ago
    What sad and wonderful memories tied into one. I know she would love how her music made you feel. God blessed you with Lisa and Whitney. emoticon
    2124 days ago
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