Ok, so This past week was a tough one to say the least. First of all Because of the holiday I had been given all sorts of goodies from my very loving family that shows love with food!
Then, I was an emotional wreck and feeling very hurt and that is a huge weakness for me. I still tracked my food but made bad choices.
I did not feel like doing as much cardio as I needed to.
We ate away from home a lot and ended up eating two very very very unhealthy meals.
So I gained at least 2 pounds back...
I feel pretty bad about being that reckless, I turned a free day into a free week.
I have got to find away to not let my emotions get the best of me.
We went out on saturday and I drank a lot, and for me who only drinks like 4 times a year. It was a LOT....
I forgave and gave into my hubby as well, it was a passionate weekend to say the least. I am still very hurt by his actions, and have a serious lack of trust for him. I am not sure that I will ever be able to fully trust him again. It takes years to build trust and seconds to loose it all. But as a very emotional person I tend to give in to the love that I have and will always have for him. He has hurt me a lot of times. I just can't loose hope that the man I fell in love with is still in there somewhere. I am not letting him off that easy though, His actions will have to match his promises.
School is getting tough, I did not do as well on my philosophy test as I thought. I am having some trouble in math and will have a midterm coming soon. I am so scared that I will not pass math. I want to graduate so much.
So last week was not so good. BUt last night, I stocked up on lots of fruit and veggies and plan to be extra strict this week. I hit the gym yesterday and did 35 mins on elliptical and burned more than usual. I am ready to dig my way out of this hole and ready to make this week a better week!
I'm sorry I let you down. I'm sorry that I sometimes make it hard to love me. I try hard, but I don't always succeed. You make me want to be a better person and a better husband. I can't imagine who I would be, where I would be, or what I would do without your unending love.
Absolutely I've learned to my woe that one free day is seldom that. At least not yet. It is SO easy to undo months of good habits with one of those days that spirals into many. Getting back on track and staying there takes the same moment by moment approach that got me on a roll with SP in the first place. I am now 14 hrs into this day, and it's gone really well.
Sounds like you're already climbing out of that hole. Enjoy those fruits and veggies! 2009 days ago
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