Ok, so This past week was a tough one to say the least. First of all Because of the holiday I had been given all sorts of goodies from my very loving family that shows love with food!
Then, I was an emotional wreck and feeling very hurt and that is a huge weakness for me. I still tracked my food but made bad choices.
I did not feel like doing as much cardio as I needed to.
We ate away from home a lot and ended up eating two very very very unhealthy meals.
So I gained at least 2 pounds back...
I feel pretty bad about being that reckless, I turned a free day into a free week.
I have got to find away to not let my emotions get the best of me.
We went out on saturday and I drank a lot, and for me who only drinks like 4 times a year. It was a LOT....
I forgave and gave into my hubby as well, it was a passionate weekend to say the least. I am still very hurt by his actions, and have a serious lack of trust for him. I am not sure that I will ever be able to fully trust him again. It takes years to build trust and seconds to loose it all. But as a very emotional person I tend to give in to the love that I have and will always have for him. He has hurt me a lot of times. I just can't loose hope that the man I fell in love with is still in there somewhere. I am not letting him off that easy though, His actions will have to match his promises.
School is getting tough, I did not do as well on my philosophy test as I thought. I am having some trouble in math and will have a midterm coming soon. I am so scared that I will not pass math. I want to graduate so much.
So last week was not so good. BUt last night, I stocked up on lots of fruit and veggies and plan to be extra strict this week. I hit the gym yesterday and did 35 mins on elliptical and burned more than usual. I am ready to dig my way out of this hole and ready to make this week a better week!