Monday, March 19, 2007
Someone told me today that I have a fixation with the scale. I think I do only because I havn't seen the numbers on the scale in years and just to excite my self I want to see those number over and over at least twice a day lol!. This weekend I got extremely upset and VERY emotional to the point of crying because I thought I was going to gain my 20 pounds back this weekend because I ate EXTREMELY bad. I just dread gaining this weight back but I still want to mess up at least one day out of the week but when I messed up this week end I really messed up and my head started hurting and I got extrememly bloted. I messed up so bad this friday that when I weighed my self on saturday I weighed 223 I then excercised on saturday on the elliptical for an hour and then I weighed again and I weighed 217!! I was extremely bloted! As I was excercising saturday I read in a mag that we may eat really great mon-fri but when the weekend comes we think we can mess up but thats not true. The article went on to say that on the weekend when we may mess up we are most likely not eating fruits and veggies and not drinking at least 8 cups of water so after reading that I went home and I ate my an apple and an orange and drank 12 cups of water all this weekend. Well when today came (Monday) I went to the gym for 20 minutes and then weighed my self and all in all I had only gained 1 pound this weekend! I weigh 214 instead of 213. I was boowhooing for nothing. I thought I had gain all 20 of my pounds back in 2 days!!