Sunday, February 19, 2012
Today I had to make myself work out. I have been losing wt. But last nite I woke up at 2 am and somehow found myself lying in bed eating a can of peanuts. I mean, really? The sheets were fresh. I was on roll with the whole eating better and exercise thing. I wake up eating peanuts? So I felt I'm on the downward slide now. I don't wanna workout. Why bother if I'm going to eat peanuts?
Yesterday's excuse was I have to watch whitney Houston's funeral. Yes, any excuse will do. I worked out any way. Today it was literally minute by minute. But as I got into the music, the minutes passed. I said I can do 5 more. One more song. It became 50 minutes! Success!
I am succeeding. What is different this time? My goals are realistic. I know I can't work out 6 days a week. Work is too hard. But I can do 4 days. I can do 30 minutes. It used to only be 10. I graduated. So once I'm past 30 minutes, it's a success. I no longer eat to overfull. That is different than being hungry. I stop when I'm no longer hungry. It's magic. I'm losing wt. I'm not starving. I'm not overfull.
I need new clothes. I still can't believe it! But it's real! Who knew it could happen? The difference is the motivating reason to eat better and exercise. It's no longer to lose wt. this time my reason was because I want quality in the next 10-15 years of my life. I don't want to be short of breath when I make the bed. So, I started these changes and didn't weigh for several months. So when someone pointed out to me I looked like I was losing wt, I weighed in. And I had! OMG! I'm on a roll! And all because I wanted to get healthy for my next decade, not really try to lose wt.
If I can do this, I know all the rest of you can! I used to stuff myself at every meal. I feared hunger. Food was all I felt I had. Now, I am learning I really have so much more! And new self esteem is just one thing I'm getting. And did I mention a few new clothes? Amazing! I go to a store, and extra large and 1x is getting too big!