It's been about 3 weeks now of watching what I eat and trying to eat healthier. While it has its benefits, it also has its downsides. For example, I have developed a new habit of stressing out when I go over the calorie limit or come close to it (for example, I'm eaten 1400 calories today and I still need to eat dinner). I would never have done this before, and I think it's good to recognize my eating patterns to make sure I stay healthy, but I hate that it now causes me anxiety.

My body (or I guess, my mind) seems to crave the anxiety, like life is dull without it. Thank God for therapy or I would be much worse than I am, but it's almost as if it's not normal to be relaxed for an extended period of time. I need to talk with someone about it because I don't want stress to define me and my life anymore! I'm going to go message my therapist right now!