Saturday, February 18, 2012
i counted 31 days in january including new years day - and to the 17th of february - which was yesterday 48 DAYS without wavering - eating well - not losing it when nothing happened on the scale. until today!!! last night i was feeling pretty down - i had made shepherd's pie for a friend coming for dinner. she had that as her main course - and i made green salad and tomatoe salad - for me and her. i made a chocolate mousse for dessert for her - and i had two squares of fresh dark chocolate.
anyway - this morning i got on the scale and i was up TWO POUNDS - this is really undeserving and crushing to anyone's motivation.
so today - my tongue was hanging out for the left over shepherds pie - and i ate it. i enjoyed every bite of it - i inhaled it - i revelled in it -
no human being can go on constantly denying denying and denying - i also find this time of the year very hard - eating lightly does not fit into the cold days and nights. so right now - i have to say - it was a GIFT OF SORTS TO MYSELF. so what if it results in the weight going up =- staying the same - whatever - nothing i do is changiing that for now.
perhaps the spring will bring more activity - wake my fat metabolism up - and maybe a FAIRY GODMOTHER WILL TAKE PITY ON ME AND COME TO RESCUE ME.
whatever happens - sometimes you just have to do what you have to do and consequences be damned.
have a great weekend - please yourself - no one else will !! BB