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I Saw 300 For The First Time In My Life Today...

Saturday, February 18, 2012

And it deeply depresses me...

However, it also motivates me.

I've always been one to let everything negative affect me. I soak it all in and turn it into a suicidal attempt in a year or so when I can't bear it much longer...
I realized that's nowhere near being a good example/role model for my 4 year old impressionable son.
My son is not fat, thank God... He's nowhere near chubby (since I'm so strict about being active when it comes to him).
I don't want to be one of those "do as I say, not as I do" people. I want him to physically see me doing my best in life. I don't want him to perceive me the way I perceive my mother...

So, I am quitting junk cold turkey. My rule of thumb is "if it couldn't be put in a hair product, don't eat it." I've tried the whole "moderation" thing, and it doesn't work for me. I don't have enough will power to stop when full or follow serving sizes.. I can't just eat 4 marshmellows and put the bag down. Maybe later after I've lost a bit of weight I will try the moderation thing again. For right now, cold turkey will do just fine.

After I post this blog I am going to go exercise (which I still haven't done since the first of January). I think doing frequent blog posts will also help keep me on track..

Soo... til tomorrow..

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
KRYSTL719 2/18/2012 10:08PM

    Its good you came to a realizaton, but now you dont have to be sad. Its a good thing. I too am a food addict, I cant put down certain foods, but I have to train myself when I know I cant be around certain foods, to nopt be by them and tell someone. Otherwise I would be going backwards. Pretend you already lost 100lbs and am on the right track maybe. I wish you positivity and strength, and feel free to contact me if you need.

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LYNNKEVIN 2/18/2012 6:56PM

  I just wanna let you're doin' a great job! Step 1 is to find a limit, and you have yours..300. Same as mine. I hit 299 once, and that was it. I don't wanna be on "My 600lb life". I have 7 children ages 24 to 4 and none are overweight. Yes, I watch them, and they could easily be chubby, but I guide them. I have to use the same principles for me. I DO enjoy the moderation "game". The key is not to feel guilty in the first place. I used to think...."Awwwwwwwwwww, I blew it, this is bad, the heck with it, I'll eat the whole bag 'cause I never shoulda give in to begin with". But I've learned when I successfully have lost weight, it was a lifestyle change, and I encorporated treats. I lose it when major tradgedy hits. I also have learned that I lose and maintain better when I eat...........and don't starve OR deprive. I wish you the best, keep us updated. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MADDIEMOM27 2/18/2012 4:53PM


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CAKEMAKERMOM 2/18/2012 4:29PM

    I find that with certain foods I can't pick up a big bag of it. I can't have a whole bag of hershey's kisses or half the bag will be gone. Same with M&M's. I have discovered that I can have good chocolates- the ones that usually come in a box, but I need to buy the 4 pack or I'd eat half the big box.

I have changed what I eat. I'll eat a whole container of strawberries, but really strawberries are much more filling and satisfy me better. Not eating processed foods gives me more energy. There must be something in the processing of those foods that make the cravings worse. Maybe because the nutrients are lacking?

I eat foods that come from the natural sources as much as possible. If it was a type of food they used 100 years ago, then it's still a good food. Try substituting fruits in season for other sweets you're craving. Salty things? Try a baked potato with a couple of toppings, cheese and bacon bits are good toppings. Nuts work well for the salty taste also, I use raw almonds and cashews for that. There is less salt when you buy them raw.

It sounds like you know what triggers you. Some foods just aren't meant to be eaten.

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LAC936 2/18/2012 2:06PM


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FENWAYGIRL18 2/18/2012 12:33PM

    You said your being strict about your son being physically active, be just as strict with yourself... We always put the one's we love before us and you know what the truth is that lil boy would be lost without his mommy. Truth is if he could he'd be strict with you and have you stay physical so he can enjoy you for a lifetime of memories because he loves you just as much as you love him....
I know it's tough, believe me I know! I also have a son who is constantly telling me he wants me around forever and he's 15 yrs old.... He's one of the biggest reason's why I'm losing weight, I was lucky too he has daddy's frame and is slim and believe me I thank god for that, I keep him active.
It's hard for me to be active cause of health issues, but I've lost well over 60 lbs making good choices and trying to swim when it's summer time cause that doesn't really hurt my joints and body as much... but it's difficult, but I have to be strict with myself so my son can have me around for a long time, we're too close for me to not be stricter with myself....
The moderation thing doesn't work for me either, I do better to avoid my downfalls... do I ever fall off the wagon , of course!
Do the little things, 1% milk with a nutritional cereal ... I find that a lean cuisine for lunch works for me and then a sensible dinner and for a snack because u have to have a snack to stay sane ... a skinny cow fudge bar... omg those are soooooooooo good taste better then a fudgicle and you know what it's bigger and only 100 calories!!!!
I wish you the best of luck on your journey!!!!! Get stricter with you! for your son's sake.... emoticon

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