Saturday, February 18, 2012
And it deeply depresses me...
However, it also motivates me.
I've always been one to let everything negative affect me. I soak it all in and turn it into a suicidal attempt in a year or so when I can't bear it much longer...
I realized that's nowhere near being a good example/role model for my 4 year old impressionable son.
My son is not fat, thank God... He's nowhere near chubby (since I'm so strict about being active when it comes to him).
I don't want to be one of those "do as I say, not as I do" people. I want him to physically see me doing my best in life. I don't want him to perceive me the way I perceive my mother...
So, I am quitting junk cold turkey. My rule of thumb is "if it couldn't be put in a hair product, don't eat it." I've tried the whole "moderation" thing, and it doesn't work for me. I don't have enough will power to stop when full or follow serving sizes.. I can't just eat 4 marshmellows and put the bag down. Maybe later after I've lost a bit of weight I will try the moderation thing again. For right now, cold turkey will do just fine.
After I post this blog I am going to go exercise (which I still haven't done since the first of January). I think doing frequent blog posts will also help keep me on track..
Soo... til tomorrow..