Friday, February 17, 2012
I am my most judgemental critic. I set impossible standards for myself, berate myself when i fail, disparage my successes, and tell myself that if I'm not perfect than what's the point. And since nobody perfect... well you see what mean. Then it's I feel like I lost before I even started. I so overwhelmed with changing everything in my life so that I will be doing everything the exact way to lose the most weight. I try to slow it down and take one change at a time but I always end up in doing the same thing. I give up before I even start. I was trying to make 1 or 2 changes a week to start. It was going ok, but I kind of fell off that wagon. "Do I even want to try and get back on?" I don't know. Maybe I will try a new strategy. Sometimes I feel like nothing works. I just can't seem to convince myself to eat healthy and exercise. I'm totally discouraged. I don't want to be this way anymore but nothing i have tried so far has changed me? I can't plan my way out of this. Sometimes I wonder if I have what it takes to achieve something so big?