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A little blue...


Thursday, February 16, 2012

So yesterday was the worst day ever....well that might be stretching it a little, but not by far.

I was kicking butt at the gym, when the woman who does the insurance program I am in (that pays for half my membership) called me and said she is ending the program. I was frozen on the elliptical. I didn't know what to say....

I've only been in the 2 year program since November, but I really liked the accountability it gave me. I HAD to weigh in every month, I HAD to keep a food journal, I HAD to attend the gym at least 2 times a week.

Now what do I do???? Who do I answer to?? I was completely devastated. Although some may think this is dumb, I had adjusted to seeing these people every month.

I had to give myself a pep talk on the way home, to cheer myself up. The positive....

1. This summer I will not have to worry about being tied down at the gym. If I want to swim, or start walking outside again, I have this option.

2. I have kicked a$$ on my own before, I know I can continue.

So right now, that's what I'm going on lol.


Oh yeah to make things even better yesterday I dropped my phone and busted to crap out of my screen.

GO ME!
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ZMILENA 2/22/2012 6:54AM

    So I loved the swimming idea... Summer on the pool - THE BEST. And there is no workout like swimming... I cant wait spring so I can get on my bike again, so you my consider this too...

Sometimes change is the best thing that can happen to you.

PS: I just broke my phone this morning, and feel like crying. We are in love you know...

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BBORDEN86 2/21/2012 2:02PM

    Sorry about your phone, and the gym. I have no doubts you will make the best of the change! You have come so far in the journey, and I know there are even more changes to come! You are a beautiful person inside and out. Sorry I have been missing out on your news lately! It's really nothing personal... I'm just trying to find my happy place again! : )

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C33JODY 2/19/2012 10:17AM

    You can do this! You have come so far already and I believe you will continue to do great!

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EVER-HOPEFUL 2/18/2012 4:57PM

    STRANGE DID THEY GIVE A REASON FOR DROPPING YOU?CAN THEY DO THAT BEFORE THE TWO YEARS ARE UP?YOU CAN DO THIS WITHOUT THEM YOU ARE STRONGER THAN THEM AMD IF YOU WANT ACCOUNTABILITY YOU CAN ALWAYS CHECK IN WITH ME YOU WEIGHT MONTHLY ETC:I KNOW IT ISNīT THE SAME BUT BETTER THAN NOTHING: emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TANGOEVELA 2/17/2012 6:29PM

    There have been so many times that I have felt like not exercising or going out to eat because I did not have energy left to stand in the kitchen and cook and measure. But then I would think about my progress that I've made and what would happen if I backslid even once. My answer to myself: "Loss of self respect, loss of admiration from my hubby, gain weight, gain depression back. It's not worth it just keep going! You can do it" Once I have gone through that thought process which happens several times a week. I opt for the food tracking and the exercise. Then every Thursday when I weigh in I see the rewards. And everyday when I go to my closet something that I couldn't fit into fits and sometimes its even loose! So you can do it!!

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OKIEGIRL75 2/17/2012 4:13PM

    emoticon I know you can do it without the gym.

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BEINGGUIDED 2/17/2012 12:59PM

    Sometimes change can be good. It gets you out of your comfort zone and forces you to adapt. You can do it girl.

On another note, depending on the phone, sometimes it is not the actually screen that is broken but just the covering over the actual screen. Hubby cracked his pretty bad, but come to find out we could just buy a new "outside" and take off the old one and put on the new one (a few screws and detailed instructions after a google search) and it was fixed for $20.

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KGIRL160 2/17/2012 10:44AM

    Change sucks - even when you initiate it - but when it comes out of the blue it can really throw you. emoticon

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GRAYGRANNY 2/17/2012 9:42AM

    Sounds like you have a handle on things with the way you gave yourself a pep talk...........ask your friends on here for encouragement sweetie......I am sure they will help you along the way........dropped your phone huh?? Well like it was said, that gives you a chance to look at others......good luck!!

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KIMMYLOU4 2/17/2012 5:37AM

    I know what you mean about the accountability. If I don't have it I get all wonky and eat and don't move. But, as others have said, you have accountablity here. Join a SP challenge. I'm doing a Biggest Loser challenge on here and we have tons of challenges and they really keep me motivated. You got this! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TIME4CARRI 2/17/2012 1:26AM

    Oh Dear,
I am so sorry for the change..... The good news is that it is for a reason and like you said in some ways you are going to have more freedom in the summer. I have to talk myself into walking videos at home and walks up and down the street since losing my gym membership and it never felt as intense as spin or the elliptical but honestly, the results have been good. It will be okay friend:)

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SEATTLE58 2/17/2012 12:13AM

    So sorry for the change. This will give you a real determination to keep up your physical activity another way. Walking is so very good for us. You'll get through this and become a stronger person because of it and committed to a healthier life more than ever! emoticon emoticon

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FITFRIT 2/16/2012 11:55PM

    What a fabulous excuse to upgrade your phone! Try to look at the positives sweetie, so their program is ending, your new life with a lot less of you in it is just starting. You don't need them! YOU are all that you need. Find a buddy, be accountable to the mirror each day and talk to yourself, you can do this. Look at how far you have come!

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CHRISKENANDKIDS 2/16/2012 10:36PM

    Michelle, you can do this no matter what happens. You are in the habit of going to the gym and you might just crave the exercise and do it on your own. I know I do. I tried to take a week off of exercise and couldn't do it. I was just too antsy. It was horrible! :) Hugs! Sorry about your phone - my 11-year-old broke the flat screen on the 4o inch TV so I feel your pain. Hang in there! We're all here to support you!

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SERENEART 2/16/2012 9:49PM

    That sucks! However, you can do this! You have made amazing progress. There are tools here on Spark and other places that can create that accountability.



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MOONBIRD 2/16/2012 8:58PM

    I'm sorry you had a crappy day. I know you will be fine without the gym. Get a little collection of workout videos and do your walking or maybe do some other sort of fitness class. The only reason I joined a gym is because one opened right near us and it's only $10 per month. I lost weight for the first year without the gym at all, so I know you'll do great.

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ALLYTHEATHLETE 2/16/2012 8:50PM

    You can totally do this! You know what you're doing and have the tools and support you need to keep on truckin'!

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WINNIE1978 2/16/2012 8:20PM

    I couldn't have said it any better than SnowAngelDiva!!!

I'm sorry that you had such a rotten day! emoticon

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MISTYBLUE716 2/16/2012 7:51PM

    I'm sorry to hear the program is ending..but maybe this is just what you need to realize you CAN and will do this on your own..and KICK MAJOR BOOTY!

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DUXGRL1 2/16/2012 7:42PM

    That sucks, but as other people have said, you can always account to us, and maybe you will find another place to exercise or some other type of exercise that you like, or maybe you can invest in a piece of equipment that you like.

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 2/16/2012 7:20PM

    THAT'S a crappy day. Sorry to hear about your phone, those things can be more expensive than a gym membership; ) As for the gym, you're right, you've totally kicked a$$ on your own and you'll continue to do so. We're all here for your accountability, you can count on me to kick your a$$!!! Love you girl!

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MENNOLY 2/16/2012 7:14PM

    Michelle the accountability part would be easy, you can do it here on Sparks. Find one of your friends and report to that friend every day. I have been doing that for a couple of months. I look forward to my friends comment on my page and I comment on hers. The big deal is if you can't affor the gym becasue you will have to figure out another way to exercise. But you know you can do it becasue you have already doni it for many months. You are strong and you will succeed! emoticon emoticon

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_JODI404 2/16/2012 7:10PM

    I'm sorry to hear this, I'm sure it did come as a very unpleasant shock.

I KNOW that you will find a way to adapt and move forward to keep working towards your goals.
As far as accountability, you could do that with your blog here, if you choose. Or you can find an accountability buddy or partner here on Spark.

It's a bummer to lose something that is working really well for you. Hang in there, I KNOW you can DO THIS!!! You are STRONG!!!

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ADVENTURESEEKER 2/16/2012 6:49PM

    Can you afford the gym on your own? It's always good to switch things up a little, even until the summer? How much longer do you have at the gym before your paid time there runs out?

I feel for you! That is quite an unexpected change, and it deserves an extra long workout session spent in deep thought and sweat to think through all your options to maintain success.

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SNOWANGELDIVA 2/16/2012 6:48PM

    It is not 'dumb' that you appreciate having the tangeable support network.
Yes, you can do this on your own, but, take a moment to accept and absorb your loss. Just because we can do it on our own doesn't make it easy, or enjoyable. You're losing both of those privileges with this change and it is absolutely FINE to feel grief and frustration over this change.
Please do not dismiss or regret your emotional attachment. You are a beautiful human being and that you are sensitive to things is hat makes you even more beautiful. Take the time to process and see how you can fill those voids healthfully or you may inadvertantly have a stress response that includes emotional eating.
You can do this.
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Poopy on the phone accident...happened to the son's lappy this week and all his school work is on it...

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TAMIPCHICAGO 2/16/2012 6:39PM

    That's a big blow, but if you can handle the financial hit, the emotional one will fade. As for being accountable, while I can see where it would help that you HAD to be accountable to the program to stay in it, but now it's time to be accountable to YOURSELF. You can do it! If I had to make the choice, I'd keep up with all of the same accounting, just do it because you insist on it. Yes, it will make it a little more flexible, but be careful not to let it flexible yourself into excuses.

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