Thursday, February 16, 2012
Have you ever had the days where you wanted to just get up in front of a crowd of people, or outside in a yard or park, and just yell it out? Let me tell you. It is purifying. It is invigorating. Why on earth would I say that? Because for me, it is just making reality known. I have been this size for over 10 years now, and every time I look in the mirror, I think that some strange fat eating genie has come to take it all away, and I will back at my high school weight again. WRONG. Doesn't happen. Do I wish it could happen? Sure, who wouldn't. But I am a very realistic person, and I accept things as they are.
But you know what I can't wait for? When I can stand in the same place and call out: "Hi I'm Paul and I'm NOT fat any longer!" THAT is what I can't wait for. But until then, I have to remember to love myself for who I am, and to stop messing with my own head. Self destruction is a powerful thing, and to combat it, we must all stay positive in our journey back to health.
So, in closing, I'm Paul and I'm fat. But not for much longer.
Blessings to all.