Thursday, February 16, 2012
I've found myself falling into a slump, I haven't been eating as good as I should, I haven't been exercising as much, I've been down in the dumps and lazy to boot. I thought I had this whole thing down and I realized I don't, not one bit, and even though I haven't gained weight, I'm teetering on the same 5 pounds I was 8 months ago and to be honest I feel down right gross. I haven't met the goals that I've set for myself and I'm disgusted and down right dissappointed with me. I'm starting now, right at this moment, to get back on track, no more cookies, no more chocolates, no more ordering food, no more soda darn it! My kids and husband deserve a fun, fit, active, happy me, something I haven't been giving them. I've felt gross for months now, my back hurts, my belly feels gross, I'm tired, I'm crabby, this is not who I am, I need to bring back that ruthless b*tch that lost 60 pounds like it was her job, the one who wouldn't stop working out until she met her daily goals, the one that used her baby as a weight (carefully, no one was hurt, lol) while trying to tone those loose arms, the girl who ran around like an idiot dancing with her kids in the kitchen while the neighbors looked on in fear, thats who I really am, and I am bringing her back right now, this lazy sh*t is O-V-E-R!!!!