Day 320 - I'm not gonna live by what I 'feel'
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
It seems like I've been having more down days then up days lately. It's like I lost 100 pounds and I just don't have the motivation to loose any more! Well my husband brought up a good point to me yesterday after I just got done having a binge session at an all you can eat Chinese restaurant. I 'feel' like my body should look different now that I've lost so much weight, don't get me wrong I am thinner, but my body still has the same basic shape, and that really bothers me.
my husband brought up that he's never known me to just give in, when someone tells me I can't do something I usually wait till they turn their back and do it anyway. (I know I'm spiteful but God's working with me to make this an only positive thing
) So it's weird that I'd hear the enemy whispering in my ear "you can't do it, that's a lot of weight you still need to loose, and look your body doesn't even look good yet" and I believe it and just roll over and give in. That's so unlike me! Well you know what Satan I got my Jesus and we're loosing this weight together!!!
In fact, I went to see a personal trainer a week or two ago and she did an assessment on me and to be average BMI I'd only need to loose another 16 pounds (or get to 164), well you know God hasn't called me to have a average ministry, a mediocre ministry, and I don't deserve an mediocre blessing. Philippians 1:6 He will finish the good work that He started in me! Satan knows this is where my heart is, with the girls and women who are suffering with food addictions. Satan knows I'm going to draw God's women to Him and he doesn't like it! So boo on you devil I'm going to do my part because I know God is already doing His.