Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Ah, yes, another, whiny, complainy blog.
Urgh, gotta get out of this f-ing funk!
I feel completely discombobulated, I feel uncomfortable.
I weighed down, I feel insanely bloated.
Why do I want to feel like this when I know damn well eating right and moving my arse makes me feel so much better?
Valentine's Day starting out lovely, but it ended up being a major bust with my husband and I still not speaking to each other.
I'm tired of thinking about food and weight. I tired of calories and fat grams. I'm tired of wishing and hoping to get thinner. I'm tired of being whiney and complainy. I'm tired of obsessing about every bite going into my mouth......
It sounds like my OCD is back. Maybe getting off my OCD meds wasn't a great idea. Maybe I'm not as strong as I thought, or maybe I'm just not working hard enough. Maybe I have given up on my being thin and athletic Maybe it's just too hard for me. Maybe it's not meant to be.
Urgh......I HATE the way I sound and feel now.
I need a good ass kicking!
Thanks for reading and the support at this whiney and complainey time!