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cravings, near-bingeing, & taking control

Monday, February 13, 2012

emoticon"I want sugar."
emoticon 'You're not hungry. This is a craving. Have some diet soda instead of eating.'

*open fridge. see 3 bean salad (dressed with oil and sugar)*

emoticon"I want 3 bean salad."
emoticon "That's a bad idea. You eat that like a frenzied animal. And you're not hungry. You're only try to feed your craving."
emoticon 'I'm just going to have a little.'

*eat 3 bean salad like a semi-frenzied animal*

emoticon"I'm sad because I lost control."
emoticon 'You knew you would be. I warned you.'
emoticon"I want to eat to feel better. I still want sugar."
emoticon 'You're only going to end up feeling worse about yourself if you do this. Get out of the kitchen.'
emoticon "I'm just going to have some diet soda first. I'll get some sweetness without the calories."
emoticon 'No, after eating the bean salad, you're just going to be giving in to your craving further and cleansing your palate so you can back to eating.'

*drink soda*

~~similar dialogue~~

*eat pesto out of the jar* (less than a tablespoon, phew)
*eat hummus out of the container* (a teaspoon or less, phew)

emoticon "I want sugar. Ooh, let's have some bean salad!"
emoticon 'NO! Get out of the kitchen.'
[whiny] emoticon"The pesto made me thirsty. I want soda."
emoticon 'No.'

*drink water*
*leave kitchen*
*pop gum*
*ask Dad to brush my hair to calm me down*
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

GGRANLDY 2/23/2012 12:59PM

    Way to go in talking yourself out of the sugar. WooHoo.. I talk to myself too. So know that you are not alone. Lots of Hugs to you!!

Miss you on the team! Stop in when you get a chance.

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MISJOSIE 2/18/2012 5:42PM

    Wow--great job getting the upper hand!

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SHAMAN29 2/14/2012 4:58PM

    I thought I was the only one that argued with myself. Good for you for making the choices you made. I hope you're having a wonderful day.

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    I hear the voices too. a little less if i eat higher fiber grains and work on some hobbies. i am redecorating my daughter's room with a black and white theme. She is having to relearn how to drive a stick shift. Ugh, my blood pressure goes up and i start yelling.

hope your day is going great and you tell the voices to shut up. remember you are so worth it.

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JAMIEHORN20 2/14/2012 10:12AM

    Glad you're listening to the dialogue within yourself. Even though it's a fight, you're learning and growing!

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KANOE10 2/14/2012 7:55AM

    You kept in control..fought your inner addiction voice and stayed away from sugar. I drink water and leave the kitchen also.

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