Monday, February 13, 2012
It’s difficult to come back to the scene of my former success and admit I’ve failed. I failed to maintain my weight loss. Sickness originally derailed my exercise program, and I didn’t get it going again when I recovered. (I don’t love exercise – I love how it makes me feel AFTER I’ve exercised.) Of course, I didn’t reduce my intake, either. (Have I mentioned I love food?) I failed to stop the upward spiral even when it became impossible to ignore. It takes time for muscle to turn to fat.
Of the 30 pounds I lost, I’ve regained 26. Sigh. I’m ashamed to come back to my Spark friends in this condition.
BUT! Failure can be good groundwork for future success. It’s not a permanent failure if I get back up, pay attention to the things that sabotaged me before, and plan what I will do if those circumstances happen again. I now know where some snares lie in wait for me. I believe I can loose the weight again, but I want it to be permanent this time. No more yo-yo!
So, Spark friends, I’d appreciate your encouraging support again. And when I get back down where I belong, I will need to keep on with a maintenance team. I need those trackers and the accountability of checking in with others. I’m so thankful that the Sparkpeople website and community is available.
Here I go….