Happiness, Goals, and How I Finally Got Bendy!
Monday, February 13, 2012
Well, here I am. Back again after another lengthy hiatus from SP. Iím proud to report that the past 7 months (ish) has not seen a return of the Cookie-Monster/Master-Justifie
r-OmNomNomVWBugGooood version of me...the one who two years ago wouldíve devoured China while rampaging through Corporate Canada in fire-engine red pumps and elastic waistbands stretched to the max. Iíve lost two dress sizes and almost 20 pounds! (booty shake!) It didnít take a fad diet, I didnít log calories at all, I havenít run since June 2011...all it took was a few small changes that led to one big lifestyle habit: HAPPINESS.
I quit my old, vampiric soul-sucking job. Remember, the one I complained about, the job that ruled my life and prevented me from being there when my nieces were born or going to Vegas for my 30th or having a real, committed relationship? Yep, kicked that to the curb. Upgraded for something better. Iím a Manager now, an Assistant Controller for a privately owned Canadian company. Uber perks. Less stress. Less overtime. More professional accomplishments that are readily recognized. I donít eat to make the feelings go away anymore.
And...get ready for it...I got BENDY! With a REAL MAN! Many, many many wonderful boot-knocking times. Hello Calorie OBLITERATOR! He made me happy. Insanely, wonderfully, fireworks and all that mushy stuff happy for so long. But yeah, I said ĎMade me happyí back there. Two months ago we broke up. Neither of us wanted it to happen, and frankly I donít really want to get into it. All Iíll say is, he had too much baggage. But thatís OK, because it was worth the pain in the end. I was Happy, I got me some (OK, I got me A LOT!), and Iím totally open to having a relationship again. Until he came along, I never realized how closed off Iíd become emotionally and how much of an impact that was having on my life in general (besides just my appetites hehe). Iím moving on and dating again (went out with a wonderful man this past Saturday night in fact!) and remaining hopeful and happy.
I look at those two things as the most significant changes in my life, though there are many notables: I went off the BC pill and am managing it shockingly well. I bought a brand new car (Suzuki SX4 Ė like a mini SUV!), I gave in and am going to be a Bridesmaid at my sisterís wedding (ugg), and Iíve made some wonderful new friendships over the past several months.
So here I am. Iím motivated to lose 30 lbs (or more!) by July 31 in anticipation of looking super Hawt in the dreaded Bridesmaid dress. 100% shallow and I donít give a damn, because Iím going to rock that thing like itís a freaking Givenchy at the Emmyís! Which means:
- Logging food. Every day. I started up again on Friday and missed Saturday but am good for yesterday and today. Interestingly enough Iím not eating ENOUGH calories right now...and yeah, itís Ďcause Iíve been conveniently Ďforgettingí about breakfast. Changed that habit starting this morning.
- Cardio and weights. Bought myself an elliptical machine last week, puzzled over the horrible destructions last night but finally got the thing put together. Did 15 minutes and almost expired on the spot because Iíve never been on an elliptical before and holy crap itís a totally different set of muscles than running! Going to rotate 30 minutes of cardio thrice weekly (baha) and strength training twice a week.
Iím already covered for water intake; I pretty much gave up Diet Coke 6 months ago except for the occasional one or two. Iím going to start incorporating green tea back into my workdays and I bought some of those SlimFast snack bars so I have something handy in the event of mid-afternoon hunger. And thatís about it for now Ė just a simple plan with an attainable goal all centered around my own personal happiness. Pretty sure I can handle that!