Right now, I do not know how I failed to miserably at being me. I was doing so good last year, made a lot of new friends on SP, kept up with challenges, was eating right, getting in fitness minutes every day....then....major fail. My life went topsy-turvey and I lost it all...my motivation, my strength, basically I lost grips on myself. I let it all go. Thank goodness I only came out 5 pounds heavier than I was in November.

I have no idea what happened exactly, but I do know that I want it all back. I want "me" back. The girl who pushed hard and tracked her food, kept up with her SP friends, challenged herself and encouraged others.

I don't want to be a failure and let myself down anymore. I know this is the millionth time I have had to pick myself off, dust myself off, and start again, but I am going to try again. I have to, for my health, my wellbeing, and my happiness.

I ask that my SP friends out there bear with me while I get caught up. I have gone through my email, and I want to see where everyone is at, find out what's going on my teams, and get into the swing of things so I can find my lighter, healthier me, and the happy girl surrounded by SP friendship and encouragement. SP is one of the greatest blessings in my life.

I guess it is true, that blogging does make a person feel better. I have vented, had a pity party, identified the issues, realized what I wanted, said it out loud, and now I just have to kick it into gear!

I wish you all a prosperous year!