I came across this picture on a family members Facebook page and although I was horrified that such a gross picture is on their page and also shocked by how I let myself go it got me thinking. This is me at 205 pounds!






So after seeing such a gross picture I decided that I need to accept two things from this horrid picture of myself.

1) I don't look like that anymore and my starting weight was 20 pounds more so I know I looked worse. So in a sense I looked a little bit better then when I started.
and
2) I am not going to look like that ever again! I've come pretty far I haven't given up and I'm 40 pounds lighter so that's something to be proud of.

It's funny because I never took full body shots of myself and I sure wasn't going to do one of me sitting down (ewww gross).

I don't have any full body shots of me from this year but I have one of me 4 months later. Here is a shot at 185 pounds in November when I was in Denver celebrating for my birthday. (sorry the shots are kinda blurry because my friend wasn't use to my camera yet)





and another not so blurry shot (and I may looked irritated but oh I wasn't my friend who was taking the pictures with me is one of my closest friends and I adore him!)





So the reason of this blog is to pretty much remind myself that I've come a long way. I may not be where I feel I should be at this time BUT I'm not where I was last year at this time that's for sure! I also posted that picture because I am serious about not ever going back, by me exposing that very unflattering picture of myself is just more motivation to get as far away from that woman as possible.

Oh and that purple shirt I couldn't wear that shirt before November of last year, I love that shirt! When Harold took my oldest daughter to see Sugarland he got me that shirt and that was over 3 years ago. It's nice to be able to finally wear it, and one day it will be too big for me which will be awesome!

That picture is just horrid but I love Spark so much and the people here that I am willing to share a not so "nice" picture of myself and my journey. We all know that the road to better health isn't always sunshine and lollipops. We have ugly embarrassing moments that teach us things along the way and I'm glad my sister froze this image forever for me. Because it made me be honest with myself and where I've been and where I'm going.