Thursday, February 09, 2012
It's been a rough week this week.My middle bonus son (he's 22) has being seeing this girl that is 9 or 10 years older than him; divorced and has a six year old son. She lives in KY at the moment and last week we found out he will be moving in with her this summer. There has been some issues that have come up over the past year with them combining their finances and some poor decision making on his part. Anyway, he has been very distant from the family, me especially since about October of last year. We had a very close relationship and now it is virtually nonexistent. I know that kids grow up and move out but under the circumstances it just breaks my heart. We are not happy with his decision to move in with her AND we aren't really fan of the relationship. There have also been instances recently where we have asked him to do something and he wants to argue with us and makes us feel as though we are putting him out. My husband tells me this is just him growing up and gaining independence, but it still hurts that he is treating us this way. So in addition to all that going on we started remodeling the guest bath Monday and that has had most of my attention as well. I just haven't been as focused as I have been. This week I have felt the need to indulge in some cravings I have been having which is chocolate. So what did I do... I baked a cake, a chocolate cake with chocolate chips mini size and regular and white chocolate chips. It was so good. I wouldn't really say that I have gone off the deep end with eating but I just haven't really been that hungry in general and when I would get hungry I would opt for the not so healthy choice. I haven't tracked my food much either. I ended up missing my class Tuesday because the electrician didn't get to the house until late in the afternoon. I haven't got in much activity since Saturday's walk with my dog. But I did spend Monday and Tuesday stripping the wall paper in the bathroom. I weighed today I am up 2 pounds to 274. UGH... but today I am back on track.I just don't feel as sparkly as I have. I also have 113 more days until my oldest bonus son and his fiance arrive from England which stress me out because I really want to be able to enjoy myself while they are here and I won't be able to if I am still at this weight. I know I am getting ahead of myself. I still have 4 months and some change to lose weight but still... I feel I have wasted the past 9 days. Today is a new day and I just need to take it minute by minute.
I think kids growing up is harder on the parents than the kids.... anyone agree?